Dearest-
I realize it has been some time since I last blogged and rather than apologize for my absence, I will attempt to explain my reasons for temporarily vanishing. Approximately two months ago I (*finally*) realized I was in need of some professional guidance. As a result, I sought out an array of professionals who were able to help me address a variety of personal issues. Since that time, I have slowly been rebuilding a healthy and stable life for myself as well as for my family (alas a slow process but ultimately proving to be successful and life saving). At present I am at a healthy, positive, and optimistic point in my life. For the first time (in a very long time) I feel like myself again- a person I had lost during the last two years. With all of that said I am whole heartedly sorry to any person (especially my friends and family) I may have hurt or neglected during the last two (self-destructive) years. Though the self-imposed journey was painful, I am profoundly grateful for the experience and self-knowledge I attained as a result of working through the pain. I am truly humbled by those who never stopped believing in me even though I had longed stopped believing in myself.
My sincerest gratitude goes out to those who stood beside me (even when I did not deserve it)…I thank you from the depths of my heart.
S
Friday, December 23, 2011
Friday, November 4, 2011
Waiting on the World...
I consider myself to be....well to be perfectly honest-a downright liberal Democrat (in case you did not already know ^-^). With that said, I fully believe in each person's right to voice their own opinion, etc. even if it violently conflicts with my own. I must however admit I was a bit sickened today upon coming across a bumper sticker which stated, "Abortion is the number one reason for missing children". While I do not condemn nor condone the act, that's a pretty bold statement and it made me feel quite ill. Again, by living in America, each person (thankfully) has the choice/right of freedom of speech, etc. Once again, I do not condone the act but I do however take issue with those who pass judgment on others...after all, the person standing on the outside looking in never knows what the circumstances are, etc. Tolerance, not necessarily agreement, is key to world and inner peace.
Lola
Dear Lola-
I miss you greatly. While I do not miss your shenanigans nor your bathroom mishaps, I do miss your sweet piggy snout and even sweeter snuggling. I know you are happy living at the farm (especially given you have two additional sweet piggies to spend your days with). Regardless, we still love and miss you and hope to visit you soon. Mommy loves you sweetness,
Always,
Mommy
I miss you greatly. While I do not miss your shenanigans nor your bathroom mishaps, I do miss your sweet piggy snout and even sweeter snuggling. I know you are happy living at the farm (especially given you have two additional sweet piggies to spend your days with). Regardless, we still love and miss you and hope to visit you soon. Mommy loves you sweetness,
Always,
Mommy
Gala's and such...
I am neither shy nor skittish, however, walking into tonight’s event solo is a bit nerve racking. Don’t get me wrong- I can pull it off, (AKA)fake confidence, and am easily able to make friends with complete strangers (a gift I value greatly). Nonetheless it is a bit daunting when nearly everyone else you know that is going has a date and/or spouse. It’s at these particular moments that I wish I were still married- a dependable, built in date you can count on to be there. Regardless, I am looking forward to tonight and welcome any adventures it might bring about- plus at least I have my masquerade mask to hide behind ^-^
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Number 1 trillion and counting…
1. My office is at subzero temperatures. I thought the heat had not yet been turned on-alas, I was informed today that I have been mistaken.
2. I adore wearing jeans to work-it’s one of the main things I miss about my former job (and I will pay money each and every time the opportunity to wear jeans at my current job is offered).
3. The next installment of “Twilight” the movie comes out this month. While movies (in my opinion) are never as good as the books, I fully intend on venturing out to the theater for this one…. V-V
4. We went to Boyd’s Orchard a couple of weekends ago…once again I must admit the experience never disappoints and I simply adore the fall season.
5. My little sister has hijacked my (very expensive) UGG boots.
6. I am living in denial that Thanksgiving is simply a mere three weeks away from today.
7. I am also in denial that my ten-year-old son is nearly as tall as me…sigh.
8. I’ve decided not to have my iPhone fixed until it completely bites the dust.
9. No one at my former job would believe that I actually dress up, put on make up, and wear jewelry everyday at my current place of employment.
10. I only like cinnamon flavored gum- all other flavors make me nauseous.
11. Maybe it’s the inner geek in me but I love a really good ink pen (and white out tape- not the liquid which I inevitably nearly always spill on my clothes).
12. Liquid white out cannot be washed out of clothes-trust me, I’ve tried.
13. My worst quality is vindictiveness- mess with me or those I love….you will see wrath.
14. My best quality is open mindedness- I am always willing to explore new thoughts and ideas.
2. I adore wearing jeans to work-it’s one of the main things I miss about my former job (and I will pay money each and every time the opportunity to wear jeans at my current job is offered).
3. The next installment of “Twilight” the movie comes out this month. While movies (in my opinion) are never as good as the books, I fully intend on venturing out to the theater for this one…. V-V
4. We went to Boyd’s Orchard a couple of weekends ago…once again I must admit the experience never disappoints and I simply adore the fall season.
5. My little sister has hijacked my (very expensive) UGG boots.
6. I am living in denial that Thanksgiving is simply a mere three weeks away from today.
7. I am also in denial that my ten-year-old son is nearly as tall as me…sigh.
8. I’ve decided not to have my iPhone fixed until it completely bites the dust.
9. No one at my former job would believe that I actually dress up, put on make up, and wear jewelry everyday at my current place of employment.
10. I only like cinnamon flavored gum- all other flavors make me nauseous.
11. Maybe it’s the inner geek in me but I love a really good ink pen (and white out tape- not the liquid which I inevitably nearly always spill on my clothes).
12. Liquid white out cannot be washed out of clothes-trust me, I’ve tried.
13. My worst quality is vindictiveness- mess with me or those I love….you will see wrath.
14. My best quality is open mindedness- I am always willing to explore new thoughts and ideas.
Story of the Week
Preface: Caleb was jumping on the trampoline with an (older) male friend whenever I overheard the following conversation:
Friend: "Do you like girls?"
Caleb: "Gross".
Friend: "Oh, so you're gay- you like boys?"
Caleb: "I don't like boys or girls- I plan on dying alone."
Ummm...can I get that in writing (not that I want my child to "die alone" but I have a sneaking suspicion he will change his mind in about a year or two).
Friend: "Do you like girls?"
Caleb: "Gross".
Friend: "Oh, so you're gay- you like boys?"
Caleb: "I don't like boys or girls- I plan on dying alone."
Ummm...can I get that in writing (not that I want my child to "die alone" but I have a sneaking suspicion he will change his mind in about a year or two).
Highlight
I do not care how vain or narcissistic it sounds- the highlight of my day today arrived whenever one of my coworkers stated to me, "You look really skinny today". Vain and silly I know, but really I'll take whatever I can get.
Six Month Countdown....
I can clearly recall being inspired by a female (who later published a book about her experience) who went on many, many dates for six months. Her experience was an experiment and while it may sound extreme it should be noted she did not sleep with any of them (nor did any of them turn out to be “the one” though she did later find him post experiment). Her encounters were often humorous and at times simply disappointing and sad. While I admire her courage, I am instead going to challenge myself (gulp-am I really committing to this?) to not date for six months. I am quite simply tired of being disappointed and hurt. Instead I am going to take this opportunity and focus on myself. Let me be frank- this will not be easy (as Libra’s are notorious for being the most happy when they are in a romantic relationship). With that said, I will persevere and rise to the challenge- sorry boys, this girl is off the market for the next six months…
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
4 Years
It’s October 25th….a mere two days until the four year anniversary of losing Matthew (the day of the funeral). Naturally I sobbed uncontrollably this past Sunday…it still hurts. While time does heal wounds, it does not eradicate the memories. Baby Matthew, I’ll always love you to the moon and back.
Insomnia
Dear Insomnia-
Why do you occasionally stalk me? Have I offended you in some unknown manner? If so, I apologize profusely. When you raid my nights I pay dearly for it the day after. Can we come to some sort of compromise?
Sincerely,
S
Why do you occasionally stalk me? Have I offended you in some unknown manner? If so, I apologize profusely. When you raid my nights I pay dearly for it the day after. Can we come to some sort of compromise?
Sincerely,
S
Friday, October 21, 2011
Trick or Treat
Given the season, here are a list of my favorite scary movies…granted the more they are based on a “true story” the more likely I am to be frightened by them….I will begin with childhood horrors and work my way up….
As a child, I was beyond terrified of the movie, “The Twighlight Zone”- particularly the scene with Dan Akroyd and John Lithgow….for years I literally could not set foot on an airplane. Why my mother allowed me to watch this at age 10 is beyond me (the only logical explanation- it was rated PG- as this was before PG 13 ratings *blush showing my age* and she simply knew no better). I swear I could not look in a mirror for days (at night without cringing).
“Candy man”- holy ($#$*#)$*#($)#(*$)#*! I was scared beyond reason….to this day, cannot go into bathroom with lights off and say the name three times in a row- ridiculous I know but still.
“Poltergeist- the original- Okay mom and dad- you caused serious harm with this one….I accidentally walked in on the swimming pool scene in which all the graves were being opened all the while my dad had on Pink Floyd’s “The Wall”….traumatized for years. His album with nothing I can describe as less than the green b*tt with legs and high heels…very traumatic when you’re five years old and see zombies crawling out of the ground.
“Stigmata”- though the movie itself is not believed to be true, I 100% believe in this phenomenon.
“The Moth man Prophesies”- now while the movie is frightening, the book is downright terrifying (and includes many details in which the movie excludes). I’ve watched countless documentaries, etc. I may be crazy but I totally believe in him.
“The Amityville Horror”- seriously if a family is so frightened they leave in the middle of the night and leave ALL their things behind never to return for them then there was some serious stuff going down.
“The Exorcism of Emily Rose”- supposedly based on a true story….scares me to death every time yet I will inevitably watch it every year.
"Damion" series...jacked up.
Now some of my favorite, not to be terrified movies include, “The Lost Boys”, “Flat liners”, “Nightmare on Elm Street series”, “Halloween series”, "Rosemary's Baby", "The Hand that Rocks the Cradle", "The Others", etc.
As a child, I was beyond terrified of the movie, “The Twighlight Zone”- particularly the scene with Dan Akroyd and John Lithgow….for years I literally could not set foot on an airplane. Why my mother allowed me to watch this at age 10 is beyond me (the only logical explanation- it was rated PG- as this was before PG 13 ratings *blush showing my age* and she simply knew no better). I swear I could not look in a mirror for days (at night without cringing).
“Candy man”- holy ($#$*#)$*#($)#(*$)#*! I was scared beyond reason….to this day, cannot go into bathroom with lights off and say the name three times in a row- ridiculous I know but still.
“Poltergeist- the original- Okay mom and dad- you caused serious harm with this one….I accidentally walked in on the swimming pool scene in which all the graves were being opened all the while my dad had on Pink Floyd’s “The Wall”….traumatized for years. His album with nothing I can describe as less than the green b*tt with legs and high heels…very traumatic when you’re five years old and see zombies crawling out of the ground.
“Stigmata”- though the movie itself is not believed to be true, I 100% believe in this phenomenon.
“The Moth man Prophesies”- now while the movie is frightening, the book is downright terrifying (and includes many details in which the movie excludes). I’ve watched countless documentaries, etc. I may be crazy but I totally believe in him.
“The Amityville Horror”- seriously if a family is so frightened they leave in the middle of the night and leave ALL their things behind never to return for them then there was some serious stuff going down.
“The Exorcism of Emily Rose”- supposedly based on a true story….scares me to death every time yet I will inevitably watch it every year.
"Damion" series...jacked up.
Now some of my favorite, not to be terrified movies include, “The Lost Boys”, “Flat liners”, “Nightmare on Elm Street series”, “Halloween series”, "Rosemary's Baby", "The Hand that Rocks the Cradle", "The Others", etc.
Perplexing yet thought provoking....
1. People who sport mullets in this day and age(seriously, 1980 is calling and it’s wants this trend back)
2. People who pull out in front of you then drive significantly under the speed limit. Seriously I do not care if you pull out in front of me as long as you actually drive at or preferably above the speed limit
3. Where the heck has fall gone…it’s freezing outside?!
4. Rudeness…I mean is your life really that bad that it’s necessary to treat others horribly?
5. People who never follow through, are undependable, and irresponsible are one of my biggest pet peeves-seriously, don’t promise or commit if you know that you will inevitably back out.
6. What the heck I am going to do now that it’s freezing outside with regards to working out…do I really want to rejoin the gym (and although my ex husband and I are on friendly terms, he does go there all the time)
7. My child is so incredibly obsessed with Angry Birds he insists on wearing the T-shirts every day to school. Luckily we have purchased several but today is picture day at school and his obsession led to a compromise- he can wear the Angry Birds to school but then must change into the appropriate attire for his picture then change back…geez.
8. I have owned an I phone for many years and despite numerous (albeit unintentional of course) abuse towards it, the face broke when I dropped it a mere two feet off the ground- I mean, really?
9. I am most creative when things in my life are in turmoil…is this what they mean by the saying “tortured artist”?
10. I am a self admitted costume jewelry fanatic…vintage simply is my thing…guess I must have once lived in the 1920’s/1930’s. Flappers, costume jewelry, you name it, I am a complete sucker.
11. I envy my mother’s decorative skills- she has turned our house into a truly beautiful home and I thank her.
12. I loathe having dreams about the world ending- not because I am afraid of death but because I am inevitably left behind in these dreams to try and salvage what’s left of it.
13. I am infatuated with my child but in 8 years, I am leaving KY….I quite simply (and have been told unequivocally/repeatedly I do not belong here).
14. I was born in the wrong era. Period.
15. I shouldn’t have but did purchase the CUTEST swirly twirly coat….resistance was futile (and yes, it has a vintage look/feel to it).
16. I’m still sad sometimes but I am stronger everyday. I thank all powers that be that I am finally over Jerry. Finally….a miracle given I never thought this would occur.
17. I firmly believe we grow more from our mistakes and errors than we do from our accomplishments.
18. I sincerely thank all those that tried to lure me to Owensboro and Louisville this weekend (sorry Ryan- Happy, happy birthday) but I am still not 100% well. I feel certain you guys will have a blast regardless.
2. People who pull out in front of you then drive significantly under the speed limit. Seriously I do not care if you pull out in front of me as long as you actually drive at or preferably above the speed limit
3. Where the heck has fall gone…it’s freezing outside?!
4. Rudeness…I mean is your life really that bad that it’s necessary to treat others horribly?
5. People who never follow through, are undependable, and irresponsible are one of my biggest pet peeves-seriously, don’t promise or commit if you know that you will inevitably back out.
6. What the heck I am going to do now that it’s freezing outside with regards to working out…do I really want to rejoin the gym (and although my ex husband and I are on friendly terms, he does go there all the time)
7. My child is so incredibly obsessed with Angry Birds he insists on wearing the T-shirts every day to school. Luckily we have purchased several but today is picture day at school and his obsession led to a compromise- he can wear the Angry Birds to school but then must change into the appropriate attire for his picture then change back…geez.
8. I have owned an I phone for many years and despite numerous (albeit unintentional of course) abuse towards it, the face broke when I dropped it a mere two feet off the ground- I mean, really?
9. I am most creative when things in my life are in turmoil…is this what they mean by the saying “tortured artist”?
10. I am a self admitted costume jewelry fanatic…vintage simply is my thing…guess I must have once lived in the 1920’s/1930’s. Flappers, costume jewelry, you name it, I am a complete sucker.
11. I envy my mother’s decorative skills- she has turned our house into a truly beautiful home and I thank her.
12. I loathe having dreams about the world ending- not because I am afraid of death but because I am inevitably left behind in these dreams to try and salvage what’s left of it.
13. I am infatuated with my child but in 8 years, I am leaving KY….I quite simply (and have been told unequivocally/repeatedly I do not belong here).
14. I was born in the wrong era. Period.
15. I shouldn’t have but did purchase the CUTEST swirly twirly coat….resistance was futile (and yes, it has a vintage look/feel to it).
16. I’m still sad sometimes but I am stronger everyday. I thank all powers that be that I am finally over Jerry. Finally….a miracle given I never thought this would occur.
17. I firmly believe we grow more from our mistakes and errors than we do from our accomplishments.
18. I sincerely thank all those that tried to lure me to Owensboro and Louisville this weekend (sorry Ryan- Happy, happy birthday) but I am still not 100% well. I feel certain you guys will have a blast regardless.
Perplexing yet thought provoking....
1. People who sport mullets in this day and age(seriously, 1980 is calling and it’s wants this trend back)
2. People who pull out in front of you then drive significantly under the speed limit. Seriously I do not care if you pull out in front of me as long as you actually drive at or preferably above the speed limit
3. Where the heck has fall gone…it’s freezing outside?!
4. Rudeness…I mean is your life really that bad that it’s necessary to treat others horribly?
5. People who never follow through, are undependable, and irresponsible are one of my biggest pet peeves-seriously, don’t promise or commit if you know that you will inevitably back out.
6. What the heck I am going to do now that it’s freezing outside with regards to working out…do I really want to rejoin the gym (and although my ex husband and I are on friendly terms, he does go there all the time)
7. My child is so incredibly obsessed with Angry Birds he insists on wearing the T-shirts every day to school. Luckily we have purchased several but today is picture day at school and his obsession led to a compromise- he can wear the Angry Birds to school but then must change into the appropriate attire for his picture then change back…geez.
8. I have owned an I phone for many years and despite numerous (albeit unintentional of course) abuse towards it, the face broke when I dropped it a mere two feet off the ground- I mean, really?
9. I am most creative when things in my life are in turmoil…is this what they mean by the saying “tortured artist”?
10. I am a self admitted costume jewelry fanatic…vintage simply is my thing…guess I must have once lived in the 1920’s/1930’s. Flappers, costume jewelry, you name it, I am a complete sucker.
11. I envy my mother’s decorative skills- she has turned our house into a truly beautiful home and I thank her.
12. I loathe having dreams about the world ending- not because I am afraid of death but because I am inevitably left behind in these dreams to try and salvage what’s left of it.
13. I am infatuated with my child but in 8 years, I am leaving KY….I quite simply (and have been told unequivocally/repeatedly I do not belong here).
14. I was born in the wrong era. Period.
15. I shouldn’t have but did purchase the CUTEST swirly twirly coat….resistance was futile (and yes, it has a vintage look/feel to it).
16. I’m still sad sometimes but I am stronger everyday. I thank all powers that be that I am finally over Jerry. Finally….a miracle given I never thought this would occur.
17. I firmly believe we grow more from our mistakes and errors than we do from our accomplishments.
18. I sincerely thank all those that tried to lure me to Owensboro and Louisville this weekend (sorry Ryan- Happy, happy birthday) but I am still not 100% well. I feel certain you guys will have a blast regardless.
2. People who pull out in front of you then drive significantly under the speed limit. Seriously I do not care if you pull out in front of me as long as you actually drive at or preferably above the speed limit
3. Where the heck has fall gone…it’s freezing outside?!
4. Rudeness…I mean is your life really that bad that it’s necessary to treat others horribly?
5. People who never follow through, are undependable, and irresponsible are one of my biggest pet peeves-seriously, don’t promise or commit if you know that you will inevitably back out.
6. What the heck I am going to do now that it’s freezing outside with regards to working out…do I really want to rejoin the gym (and although my ex husband and I are on friendly terms, he does go there all the time)
7. My child is so incredibly obsessed with Angry Birds he insists on wearing the T-shirts every day to school. Luckily we have purchased several but today is picture day at school and his obsession led to a compromise- he can wear the Angry Birds to school but then must change into the appropriate attire for his picture then change back…geez.
8. I have owned an I phone for many years and despite numerous (albeit unintentional of course) abuse towards it, the face broke when I dropped it a mere two feet off the ground- I mean, really?
9. I am most creative when things in my life are in turmoil…is this what they mean by the saying “tortured artist”?
10. I am a self admitted costume jewelry fanatic…vintage simply is my thing…guess I must have once lived in the 1920’s/1930’s. Flappers, costume jewelry, you name it, I am a complete sucker.
11. I envy my mother’s decorative skills- she has turned our house into a truly beautiful home and I thank her.
12. I loathe having dreams about the world ending- not because I am afraid of death but because I am inevitably left behind in these dreams to try and salvage what’s left of it.
13. I am infatuated with my child but in 8 years, I am leaving KY….I quite simply (and have been told unequivocally/repeatedly I do not belong here).
14. I was born in the wrong era. Period.
15. I shouldn’t have but did purchase the CUTEST swirly twirly coat….resistance was futile (and yes, it has a vintage look/feel to it).
16. I’m still sad sometimes but I am stronger everyday. I thank all powers that be that I am finally over Jerry. Finally….a miracle given I never thought this would occur.
17. I firmly believe we grow more from our mistakes and errors than we do from our accomplishments.
18. I sincerely thank all those that tried to lure me to Owensboro and Louisville this weekend (sorry Ryan- Happy, happy birthday) but I am still not 100% well. I feel certain you guys will have a blast regardless.
In the City....
There are many days I can strongly relate to the character Carrie Bradshaw. The most obvious characteristic is our penchant for writing (only she was fortunately paid to do it whereas thus far, I am not). Carrie and her three fabulous friends were forever getting into relationship fiasco's (well I guess technically "Samantha" was simply crawling into every one's beds). How in this day and age, can an educated, attractive, decent female have such a complicated time finding a decent, attractive male? One who isn't commitment shy or sprinting to get to the alter. Seriously (in my wise mother's opinion) if you have never been married or in a serious adult relationship by the time you are in your mid thirties (and no high school and college do not count) then something is flawed (AKA run- do not attempt to fix/change it). Where are all of "normal", non-married, successful, men? Perhaps my friend Mia is correct- I am simply at an age when most people are getting married for the first time....according to her, give it 5-7 years and they will all be getting divorced and suddenly available (and beating down my door :)
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Halloween
Feeling a bit nostalgic....this time last year I was preparing to be "Lorena" from the series "True Blood" with my former coworkers. All should note, I adore my new coworkers and desperately miss my old ones...still I am wistful for the "True Blood" extravaganza planning as of last year.
Friday, October 14, 2011
NYC
Today I met a lovely family originally from New York that relocated to Kentucky in recent years. I have a passionate love affair with the New York accent-don't get me wrong, I quite fancy foreign accents (particularly Australian and British), however nothing makes my heart swoon more than a man with a NYC accent. Sigh...
P.S. NYC I love you
P.S. NYC I love you
Things about me....300 million and counting...
1. I've continued to shrink and shrink (yes people/friends I know you already think I'm too thin) but this recent break-up will likely only further contribute to this trend. Truth be told I cannot say I object as having "Kardashian" curves has to be monitored ;) (AKA constant running/walking in park)
2. I think I would be drowning without my family and friends right now. I thank each and every one of you from the depths of my heart.
3. During the last month, I've had two tattoos completed (one of which is on FB and covered up a former boyfriend's initials- a mistake I will never make again- can you say "kiss of death"?) and second a tat across my ribs which boldly states KNOW YOUR RIGHTS. Consequently, the tattoo artist and I are now on a first name basis.
4. I also have a new piercing but I'm not disclosing where.
5. I love my job, who I work with, and what I do. I am humbled everyday that I have the distinct privilege in being able to help others.
6. My hair is nearly to my elbows. Don't worry, I will not cut it all off this time (hence given the slightest desire, I read my previous "Rapunzel" blog post)in which (silly I know) grieve over the inches of hair I cut off at that time.
7. When I give my heart to someone I expect them to treasure and protect it as if it were their own. Failure to do so equates into you losing me forever.
8. I always love Fridays (seriously who doesn't?)but especially love Fridays that fall on a pay day (hence today).
9. Turning 33 really does not feel any older than 32. Really. Seriously (and in no way is my intent to sound vain) but between working out, botox, etc. I actually look better as I've become older.
10. Fall is here! Hello orchards, Halloween, tall boots, leggings, floppy hats, etc.!
11. UK basketball is finally making it's debut! Big Blue Madness is tonight! Thanks heavens because UK football this year has been disasterous.
12. I want to go to NYC!
2. I think I would be drowning without my family and friends right now. I thank each and every one of you from the depths of my heart.
3. During the last month, I've had two tattoos completed (one of which is on FB and covered up a former boyfriend's initials- a mistake I will never make again- can you say "kiss of death"?) and second a tat across my ribs which boldly states KNOW YOUR RIGHTS. Consequently, the tattoo artist and I are now on a first name basis.
4. I also have a new piercing but I'm not disclosing where.
5. I love my job, who I work with, and what I do. I am humbled everyday that I have the distinct privilege in being able to help others.
6. My hair is nearly to my elbows. Don't worry, I will not cut it all off this time (hence given the slightest desire, I read my previous "Rapunzel" blog post)in which (silly I know) grieve over the inches of hair I cut off at that time.
7. When I give my heart to someone I expect them to treasure and protect it as if it were their own. Failure to do so equates into you losing me forever.
8. I always love Fridays (seriously who doesn't?)but especially love Fridays that fall on a pay day (hence today).
9. Turning 33 really does not feel any older than 32. Really. Seriously (and in no way is my intent to sound vain) but between working out, botox, etc. I actually look better as I've become older.
10. Fall is here! Hello orchards, Halloween, tall boots, leggings, floppy hats, etc.!
11. UK basketball is finally making it's debut! Big Blue Madness is tonight! Thanks heavens because UK football this year has been disasterous.
12. I want to go to NYC!
When the bottom falls out (over and over again)....
Fell hard, fell fast. Unfortunately my heart was broken again. With that said, I will survive-it's what I do best. I think I am destined for either a life of being single or Lesbianism ;-)
Monday, October 3, 2011
Story of the Week
Preface: Caleb and I were recently standing in line at Subway. Caleb subsequently began to describe to me that his Nana (who resides in Danville) has a special Subway card that collects points and after so many points you get a free sandwich, etc..
Me: "Oh- you're talking about a Subway rewards card. They have those at every Subway (as Caleb was under the impression this phenomenon only existed at the Danville Subway)."
Caleb: "Do you have one?"
Me: "No, but whenever I was a teenager I went to Subway all the time and had a card".
Caleb: "You mean they had Subway's that LONG ago?"
Me: "Oh- you're talking about a Subway rewards card. They have those at every Subway (as Caleb was under the impression this phenomenon only existed at the Danville Subway)."
Caleb: "Do you have one?"
Me: "No, but whenever I was a teenager I went to Subway all the time and had a card".
Caleb: "You mean they had Subway's that LONG ago?"
Friday, September 16, 2011
Ready, set, go!
I am ready for Keeneland to begin!
I am ready for colorful (Fall) leaves (then raking them into piles to jump into once they've fallen to the ground).
I am ready for UK basketball (no offense UK football but you aren't looking too promising thus far this year).
I am ready for my sister's annual pirate party on Monday.
I am ready to move on, move forward, and embrace new adventures.
I am ready to help change the world in any small or profound way I can.
I am simply ready.
I am ready for colorful (Fall) leaves (then raking them into piles to jump into once they've fallen to the ground).
I am ready for UK basketball (no offense UK football but you aren't looking too promising thus far this year).
I am ready for my sister's annual pirate party on Monday.
I am ready to move on, move forward, and embrace new adventures.
I am ready to help change the world in any small or profound way I can.
I am simply ready.
Learning and Believing
I've learned people aren't always who they claim or portray themselves to be...this can be a good or bad learning experience.
I've learned to let go of things and people who have hurt me. I pray that those I've hurt will show me the same courtesy.
I've learned (and am still learning) how to maintain my optimism but balance it with the reality that not all people can be trusted.
I've learned true change does not occur over night but is an ongoing life long journey.
I believe laughter really is the best medicine.
I believe world peace and peace of mind are not only attainable but also inevitable.
I believe we are only as old as we act, play, and feel.
I believe Fall weather, boots, and scarves really can turn around a bad day.
I believe if a person does not like animals then he or she likely posses traits of a sociopath.
I believe love can be blind (again this could lead to a positive or negative experience).
I believe you're never to old to dance.
I've learned to let go of things and people who have hurt me. I pray that those I've hurt will show me the same courtesy.
I've learned (and am still learning) how to maintain my optimism but balance it with the reality that not all people can be trusted.
I've learned true change does not occur over night but is an ongoing life long journey.
I believe laughter really is the best medicine.
I believe world peace and peace of mind are not only attainable but also inevitable.
I believe we are only as old as we act, play, and feel.
I believe Fall weather, boots, and scarves really can turn around a bad day.
I believe if a person does not like animals then he or she likely posses traits of a sociopath.
I believe love can be blind (again this could lead to a positive or negative experience).
I believe you're never to old to dance.
Friday, September 9, 2011
Newest
Absolute Truths:
1. The last 6 months have been challenging (which is putting it lightly) but I have persevered.
2. I now honestly and whole heartedly believe the universe will never give you more than you can handle. (Furthermore, it will ultimately make you a stronger and better person).
3. No matter your circumstances, someone else ALWAYS has it worse. Remember that.
4. I am gradually learning to forgive and let go…its taken time but I have finally arrived at that place.
5. Forget pride- simply ask for help when you need it (previously one of my biggest downfalls).
6. After months of stumbling through the darkness, I can see the light (quite brightly) at the end of the tunnel. Thank you.
7. Only you can truly save yourself.
8. Time heals all wounds. All- without question.
9. Communication- be it work, personal relationships, friendships, etc. is key….without it, misunderstandings will occur and result in drama.
10. Life is short…just go for it (regardless of the situation or how insurmountable the odds may seem in that given moment).
11. Do not dwell on the “what if’s”….I truly believe each person (right or wrong) does the best he or she can in any given situation….after all, hind sight is 20/20.
12. Be true to yourself and your beliefs…others may not agree with them but when you arrive at the end of this lifetime you’ll have no regrets if you hold strong to your personal beliefs.
13. Tell the people you love that you love and care about them often…unfortunately it could be the last opportunity you have to communicate such things.
14. Be yourself- I am positive there must be some people who think I am strange for always wearing black nail polish….no; I am not a witch or Satanist….I simply like it. Period.
15. Sugar free red bull has saved my life on more than one occasion (including today).
16. Despite the drastic change in weather….I LOVE that I can finally wear my boots, scarves, and floppy hats again.
17. I love dancing (likely more than the average person- even if it means dancing alone).
1. The last 6 months have been challenging (which is putting it lightly) but I have persevered.
2. I now honestly and whole heartedly believe the universe will never give you more than you can handle. (Furthermore, it will ultimately make you a stronger and better person).
3. No matter your circumstances, someone else ALWAYS has it worse. Remember that.
4. I am gradually learning to forgive and let go…its taken time but I have finally arrived at that place.
5. Forget pride- simply ask for help when you need it (previously one of my biggest downfalls).
6. After months of stumbling through the darkness, I can see the light (quite brightly) at the end of the tunnel. Thank you.
7. Only you can truly save yourself.
8. Time heals all wounds. All- without question.
9. Communication- be it work, personal relationships, friendships, etc. is key….without it, misunderstandings will occur and result in drama.
10. Life is short…just go for it (regardless of the situation or how insurmountable the odds may seem in that given moment).
11. Do not dwell on the “what if’s”….I truly believe each person (right or wrong) does the best he or she can in any given situation….after all, hind sight is 20/20.
12. Be true to yourself and your beliefs…others may not agree with them but when you arrive at the end of this lifetime you’ll have no regrets if you hold strong to your personal beliefs.
13. Tell the people you love that you love and care about them often…unfortunately it could be the last opportunity you have to communicate such things.
14. Be yourself- I am positive there must be some people who think I am strange for always wearing black nail polish….no; I am not a witch or Satanist….I simply like it. Period.
15. Sugar free red bull has saved my life on more than one occasion (including today).
16. Despite the drastic change in weather….I LOVE that I can finally wear my boots, scarves, and floppy hats again.
17. I love dancing (likely more than the average person- even if it means dancing alone).
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Pain in the a**
Today at work (wearing a cute black dress and killer black high heels-hey, I’m just saying) I quickly discovered I have been bitten by a mosquito on my, ahem… derriere. Nice. Completing evaluations will be great fun as I try not to scratch and squirm. Thanks you little blood sucker. If I am going to be bitten, can’t a vampire from “True Blood” be the culprit? Now that’s something I would proudly display. V-V
Monday, August 15, 2011
My Indian Guru
During the last few years there has been an older Indian man I have often seen walking throughout my local community. He is dressed in Indian attire and appears to walk everywhere-the library, grocery store, etc. – in other words, he literally walks miles everyday. I do not know his age- if pressed to guess I would venture to say he is in his seventies. Initially (upon moving to Nicholasville five years ago) I was frightened by this strange man who spoke in a thick Indian accent and blessed each person who crossed his path. In recent weeks I have seen this Indian man at least once a day at which each time he stops to speak with me. My Indian man always says the same things to me: “Bless you. You are a beautiful mother. You are a good person. God is great. Your inner beauty is visible through your eyes. You will be okay. I love you. Be blessed.” My Indian man has taught me many things- he appears to be one of the most happy, energetic, and peaceful person’s I have ever met (and I would like to learn his secret to his ability to radiate these qualities). My Indian man has a wife and family (whom I have never met) but his daily blessings are something I now look forward to. I think my Indian man has much to teach me…he has traveled the world and studied philosophy, religion, etc. extensively. Thank you universe for bringing this simple, humble, extraordinarily happy person into my life.
Paying it Forward...
“That’s just the way it is but I hope it doesn’t stay that way”…
As many of my readers are aware I do not in any way consider myself religious (please see previous posts), however, I do consider spirituality to be an important aspect in my life (and hopefully in others lives as well). With that said, I attended church yesterday… (readers I know you are momentarily stunned into silence)... but I found it to be incredibly inspiring. While I turned a silent ear to most of the religious jargon I was incredibly inspired by the compelling acts of selfless volunteerism this particular organization has been doing. I am a big believer in “paying it forward” and as a result feel compelled to give back to others (not monetarily speaking but instead through simple acts of volunteering and acts of kindness). I am especially interested in the programs in which 1-2 times a week, volunteers venture into some of the most poverty stricken areas in our community, knock on doors, and simply ask the residents if they need any help or assistance. These volunteers are not trying to “convert” or receive anything in return…they are simply helping those who are vulnerable and unable to help themselves. These volunteers have literally moved mountains…feeding starving children (both in our country and around the world), providing medical assistance, and providing other much needed resources. Instead of feeling sorry for myself, I have decided to focus on others who are far less fortunate than I. One person alone may not be able to change the world but perhaps by joining hands we really can change the world simply by “paying it forward”.
As many of my readers are aware I do not in any way consider myself religious (please see previous posts), however, I do consider spirituality to be an important aspect in my life (and hopefully in others lives as well). With that said, I attended church yesterday… (readers I know you are momentarily stunned into silence)... but I found it to be incredibly inspiring. While I turned a silent ear to most of the religious jargon I was incredibly inspired by the compelling acts of selfless volunteerism this particular organization has been doing. I am a big believer in “paying it forward” and as a result feel compelled to give back to others (not monetarily speaking but instead through simple acts of volunteering and acts of kindness). I am especially interested in the programs in which 1-2 times a week, volunteers venture into some of the most poverty stricken areas in our community, knock on doors, and simply ask the residents if they need any help or assistance. These volunteers are not trying to “convert” or receive anything in return…they are simply helping those who are vulnerable and unable to help themselves. These volunteers have literally moved mountains…feeding starving children (both in our country and around the world), providing medical assistance, and providing other much needed resources. Instead of feeling sorry for myself, I have decided to focus on others who are far less fortunate than I. One person alone may not be able to change the world but perhaps by joining hands we really can change the world simply by “paying it forward”.
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Dear Universe,
While you are no doubt extremely busy, I would be most appreciative if you could speed this whole process up. I am very ready to move on and move forward with my life. Although my mind fully understands this, can you kindly explain this to my heart? I am tired of being sad, not eating, nor sleeping well. Please help me to heal myself and as quickly as possible.
Gratefully Yours,
S
While you are no doubt extremely busy, I would be most appreciative if you could speed this whole process up. I am very ready to move on and move forward with my life. Although my mind fully understands this, can you kindly explain this to my heart? I am tired of being sad, not eating, nor sleeping well. Please help me to heal myself and as quickly as possible.
Gratefully Yours,
S
Friday, August 12, 2011
Me
Right Now
1. Shopping doesn’t heal a broken heart but it certainly helps to soothe it.
2. As does Botox and Juvaderm.
3. Looking great and living well are the best revenge.
4. Therapy certainly helps as well.
5. I have learned a very hard lesson- there are manipulative and lying people in the world (I’ve naively always believed the opposite).
6. I am a bit bitter but not broken. I am a survivor. Time really does heal all wounds.
7. From the outside you’d never guess what’s going on in my life right now (I am a pretty good actress/pretender).
8. Thus the need for therapy.
9. I miss Lola.
10.I miss my true self more.
11.Learning to type again with acrylic nails (after not wearing any for so long) really was easier than I thought it would be. Texting-not so much.
12.I am lost but will eventually find my way.
13.I have cried and grieved more in the last 6 months than I have in my entire life. It’s therapeutic (and I rarely cried before-AKA-there’s a lot to get out).
14.I do not consider myself a weak person…I’ve just had to be strong for too long.
15.I highly recommend spray tans….avoid the wrinkles and sun spots at all cost.
16.I am learning to take better care of myself (emotionally). I am not perfect but at least I am trying.
17.I feel sorry for people who lie to themselves….eventually it will catch up with you. Really.
18.I know this from experience.
19.Someday I will be whole again and then the possibilities will be endless.
20.There is a reason I am here today and experiencing this process. I don’t know the reasons yet but one day I will. Based upon previous experience, the worse it hurts the more you learn and grow.
1. Shopping doesn’t heal a broken heart but it certainly helps to soothe it.
2. As does Botox and Juvaderm.
3. Looking great and living well are the best revenge.
4. Therapy certainly helps as well.
5. I have learned a very hard lesson- there are manipulative and lying people in the world (I’ve naively always believed the opposite).
6. I am a bit bitter but not broken. I am a survivor. Time really does heal all wounds.
7. From the outside you’d never guess what’s going on in my life right now (I am a pretty good actress/pretender).
8. Thus the need for therapy.
9. I miss Lola.
10.I miss my true self more.
11.Learning to type again with acrylic nails (after not wearing any for so long) really was easier than I thought it would be. Texting-not so much.
12.I am lost but will eventually find my way.
13.I have cried and grieved more in the last 6 months than I have in my entire life. It’s therapeutic (and I rarely cried before-AKA-there’s a lot to get out).
14.I do not consider myself a weak person…I’ve just had to be strong for too long.
15.I highly recommend spray tans….avoid the wrinkles and sun spots at all cost.
16.I am learning to take better care of myself (emotionally). I am not perfect but at least I am trying.
17.I feel sorry for people who lie to themselves….eventually it will catch up with you. Really.
18.I know this from experience.
19.Someday I will be whole again and then the possibilities will be endless.
20.There is a reason I am here today and experiencing this process. I don’t know the reasons yet but one day I will. Based upon previous experience, the worse it hurts the more you learn and grow.
Sunday, July 31, 2011
More things I've learned....
1. Sometimes boys are just mean. My advice-simply walk away.
2. Smoking cigarettes can kill you but so can a lot of other things.
3. Forgiveness is easy; forgetting entirely is sometimes impossible.
4. Deal with issues as they arise-otherwise they will eventually come back to haunt you.
5. Life is so short- don't take it for granted.
6. Sometimes love is "really all you need".
7. Hammocks and solitude have saved my life more than I care to admit.
8. If someone treats you bad now it will only get worse. Don't just walk away- run.
9. Someone else always has it worse than you so be kind.
10. Despite the initial loneliness being alone and dependent will make you a more confident, self reliant, and better person in the end.
11. Mowing the lawn is a lot harder than I anticipated yet strangely rewarding.
12. Good people exist.. they may be hard to find so just continue searching.
2. Smoking cigarettes can kill you but so can a lot of other things.
3. Forgiveness is easy; forgetting entirely is sometimes impossible.
4. Deal with issues as they arise-otherwise they will eventually come back to haunt you.
5. Life is so short- don't take it for granted.
6. Sometimes love is "really all you need".
7. Hammocks and solitude have saved my life more than I care to admit.
8. If someone treats you bad now it will only get worse. Don't just walk away- run.
9. Someone else always has it worse than you so be kind.
10. Despite the initial loneliness being alone and dependent will make you a more confident, self reliant, and better person in the end.
11. Mowing the lawn is a lot harder than I anticipated yet strangely rewarding.
12. Good people exist.. they may be hard to find so just continue searching.
Friday, June 17, 2011
Question posed at work:
“What floats your boat?”
Which in turn inevitably made me stop and wonder what exactly does “float my boat”? Initially, I found it much easier to come up with a list of things that rock my boat if not downright capsize it.After all, it’s much easier to rattle off a list of what hurts me or makes me sad (especially considering recent events). Still, after much reflection I was able to come up with the following items:
Professionally speaking this entails the fact my job provides me with not only the opportunity but also the privilege of helping others and truly making a difference in a person’s life. What really “floats my boat” is having a new coworker who happens to rock. In addition, no longer being the sole person loaded down by WHEELS evaluations really keeps me afloat versus the alternative (which was drowning).
On a personal level, my family floats my boat-they are forever throwing me a life jacket whenever needed and breathing life back into my sometimes tattered sail. Hanging out with friends who make me laugh until I cry absolutely keeps me afloat. Hearing Caleb say he loves me and snuggling with me inevitably blows away any threats of dark clouds or impending storms threatening to sink my boat. Being in love and being truly loved in return floats my boat especially whenever that person is a fantastic kisser (you know who you are). Animals, long weekends, lounging in a hammock, reading tabloid magazines (my secret guilty pleasure-well maybe not so secret anymore), oceans, warm weather, and a good book undoubtedly float my boat. Discussing politics, spirituality, science, life, etc. always floats my boat (even though at times this can-metaphorically speaking-lead to ships clashing). Blogging, coloring (yes, with crayons I admit it), decorating, listening to good music and dancing float my boat. I’m glad this question was posted at work today…after many days of feeling blue and down, it’s nudged me to get over it already and focus on the things that float my boat versus those that attempt to accomplish just the opposite.
“What floats your boat?”
Which in turn inevitably made me stop and wonder what exactly does “float my boat”? Initially, I found it much easier to come up with a list of things that rock my boat if not downright capsize it.After all, it’s much easier to rattle off a list of what hurts me or makes me sad (especially considering recent events). Still, after much reflection I was able to come up with the following items:
Professionally speaking this entails the fact my job provides me with not only the opportunity but also the privilege of helping others and truly making a difference in a person’s life. What really “floats my boat” is having a new coworker who happens to rock. In addition, no longer being the sole person loaded down by WHEELS evaluations really keeps me afloat versus the alternative (which was drowning).
On a personal level, my family floats my boat-they are forever throwing me a life jacket whenever needed and breathing life back into my sometimes tattered sail. Hanging out with friends who make me laugh until I cry absolutely keeps me afloat. Hearing Caleb say he loves me and snuggling with me inevitably blows away any threats of dark clouds or impending storms threatening to sink my boat. Being in love and being truly loved in return floats my boat especially whenever that person is a fantastic kisser (you know who you are). Animals, long weekends, lounging in a hammock, reading tabloid magazines (my secret guilty pleasure-well maybe not so secret anymore), oceans, warm weather, and a good book undoubtedly float my boat. Discussing politics, spirituality, science, life, etc. always floats my boat (even though at times this can-metaphorically speaking-lead to ships clashing). Blogging, coloring (yes, with crayons I admit it), decorating, listening to good music and dancing float my boat. I’m glad this question was posted at work today…after many days of feeling blue and down, it’s nudged me to get over it already and focus on the things that float my boat versus those that attempt to accomplish just the opposite.
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Enough Seriously
In the interest of not alienating and depressing everyone I know, here are a few new fun facts:
1. I am now the official owner of a total of 10 tattoos....if you want to see/know what they are then contact me personally.
2. Lola will soon have her own customized house built for her...outdoors...we'll see how that works out (keeping fingers crossed).
3. I never thought I'd "cheat" on the iPhone but inevitably I have...honestly the Android is better...sorry iPhone but it's true...but at least it's still AT&T...
4. "True Blood" season four begins one week from this upcoming Sunday...there are no words capable of describing my anticipation and excitement...luckily my first (blush) ex husband does not object to me watching the series at his house since I no longer have HBO.
5. Baseball season for Caleb is at a near end...I could not be happier.
6. I have made catastrophic mistakes but am learning this is part of the human experience. I cannot control everything despite my best efforts to do so.
7. I have learned the hard way that some people will always take advantage of others....consider this your warning so beware.
8. My youngest sister Hannah is a budding nail artist-seriously she is 11 years old and the pictures she sends me of her work would indicate otherwise. Simply brilliant.
9. I will never underestimate or lack an appreciation for the fact I get along well with my ex husbands.
10. I have literally lost nearly 20 pounds since beginning my new job (which I love but love even more now that Erika is there :)
1. I am now the official owner of a total of 10 tattoos....if you want to see/know what they are then contact me personally.
2. Lola will soon have her own customized house built for her...outdoors...we'll see how that works out (keeping fingers crossed).
3. I never thought I'd "cheat" on the iPhone but inevitably I have...honestly the Android is better...sorry iPhone but it's true...but at least it's still AT&T...
4. "True Blood" season four begins one week from this upcoming Sunday...there are no words capable of describing my anticipation and excitement...luckily my first (blush) ex husband does not object to me watching the series at his house since I no longer have HBO.
5. Baseball season for Caleb is at a near end...I could not be happier.
6. I have made catastrophic mistakes but am learning this is part of the human experience. I cannot control everything despite my best efforts to do so.
7. I have learned the hard way that some people will always take advantage of others....consider this your warning so beware.
8. My youngest sister Hannah is a budding nail artist-seriously she is 11 years old and the pictures she sends me of her work would indicate otherwise. Simply brilliant.
9. I will never underestimate or lack an appreciation for the fact I get along well with my ex husbands.
10. I have literally lost nearly 20 pounds since beginning my new job (which I love but love even more now that Erika is there :)
Ceasing to Express
It's been forever since I've blogged...many reasons can be attributed to this...I went through a divorce, fell in love (again), and had my heart broken (again). Although I know writing is therapeutic for me it doesn't necessarily equate into me actually writing (though in hindsight nothing helps me more). At this point it's difficult for me to share and write about anything in my life...I've always been an "open book" which has transpired into my blogging, however, I have (as of late) felt strangely exposed and vulnerable to the point my blogging (temporarily) ceased. I am okay (for any concerned). Inevitably it must be within human nature (or at least part of the human experience) to constantly face obstacles which initially seem unconquerable, that seem impossible to live through...perhaps this is the very reason for our existence-to realize not only who we are but experience that pain in order to truly appreciate who and what we really are.
Surviving
I've been here before...unfortunately (as much as I'd prefer to pretend otherwise) this is not unfamiliar territory. Literally picking myself up off the ground is (alas unfortunately) something I am well accustomed too. One would think it would get easier with each go around but truly it does not. My main solace is knowing I've been here before, survived, and persevered. Even so, each time feels new...freshly broken and vulnerable in unimaginable ways. I am a survivor though and will survive...I always have and undoubtedly I always will (even if I don't always believe it).
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Story of the Week
Caleb was incredulous upon learning such things as “Drag Queen” shows exist (which consequently I actually enjoy attending upon occasion). Caleb has a general understanding of gender roles, different orientations, etc. (age appropriately of course). It is my sincere hope I have instilled in him the fact each person deserves the right to live and love how he or she wants to. With that said, Caleb then made the following statements:
Caleb: “I sure hope those guys get paid a lot-they deserve it!”
Me: (Laughing) “Why would you say that?”
Caleb: “Because it must be so terrible for them to have to dress up as girls and wear makeup and high heels-that’s a lot of hard work”.
Caleb: “I sure hope those guys get paid a lot-they deserve it!”
Me: (Laughing) “Why would you say that?”
Caleb: “Because it must be so terrible for them to have to dress up as girls and wear makeup and high heels-that’s a lot of hard work”.
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Life as I Know it....
Never before in my life have three months gone by so quickly. Primarily this has to do with my new job and the fact I am currently doing a job two full-time people and one part-time person previously did (granted this began when I had only been at my new job for three weeks time-total “Baptism by fire” baby). With that said, I adore my job and simply cannot wait for my new coworker to start at the end of this month.
Secondly, I have been going through a divorce which consequently should finalize next week…great timing- start a new job then decide to get a divorce simultaneously….thankfully I am great at organization and multi-tasking so it’s been difficult but manageable.
Third, I have recently met my birth father and tentatively begun a relationship with him. This in of itself was unplanned, unexpected and thus far, going well.
Fourth, I am head over heels crazy about a guy I first met nearly two years ago (consequently it was innocent and we became great friends at that time). Fast forward to present day and I cannot imagine my life without him. It is without reason or practicality but I simply love him and he loves me back. Fools may rush in but I choose love and any and all consequences it entails.
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Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Updates-Random
1. Randomly met and connected with birth father over derby weekend resulting in connecting with my two younger half brothers...
2. Had a falling out with my adoptive father which had nothing to do with number 1.
3. Discovered divorce will be finalized no later than next Tuesday.
4. Yet have never been more in love...now I get what all all of the great poets were talking about- took more than 30 years but better late than never.
5. Still shocked Bin Laden is dead.
6. Cannot wait until May 31st when my new coworker starts.
7. Wishing Lola loved her dog house-alas, it's a work in progress.
8. Finally broke down and got several tattoos I've been wanting.
9. May be moving in July-translation-July will be a crazy month.
10. Have missed blogging desperately but have had no time given professional and personal recent events.
2. Had a falling out with my adoptive father which had nothing to do with number 1.
3. Discovered divorce will be finalized no later than next Tuesday.
4. Yet have never been more in love...now I get what all all of the great poets were talking about- took more than 30 years but better late than never.
5. Still shocked Bin Laden is dead.
6. Cannot wait until May 31st when my new coworker starts.
7. Wishing Lola loved her dog house-alas, it's a work in progress.
8. Finally broke down and got several tattoos I've been wanting.
9. May be moving in July-translation-July will be a crazy month.
10. Have missed blogging desperately but have had no time given professional and personal recent events.
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
It's taken me a long time to learn....
1. That sometimes being alone is far better than being with someone just for the sake of companionship.
2. That you can only live a lie or fake it for so long before you begin to not only compromise yourself but also who you are as a person.
3. That living alone isn't easy but until you do it, you are incapable of knowing how strong you truly are.
4. That despite good intentions, some people will always lie, manipulate, and take advantage.
5. That despite others opinions, it really is therapeutic to cry, vent and rage if/when necessary.
6. That it takes years to establish and build a good reputation but only seconds to tear it all down.
7. That it really is okay to ask for help whenever you need it...after all, no one is "super human".
8. That sometimes the best things in life come along when you least expect it.
9. That it is okay to love, feel, act, etc. with whole hearted passion no matter the outcome or consequences...and that if in fact you don't, that may be the biggest mistake you ever make.
10. That no one said life would be easy, only that it would be worth it.
2. That you can only live a lie or fake it for so long before you begin to not only compromise yourself but also who you are as a person.
3. That living alone isn't easy but until you do it, you are incapable of knowing how strong you truly are.
4. That despite good intentions, some people will always lie, manipulate, and take advantage.
5. That despite others opinions, it really is therapeutic to cry, vent and rage if/when necessary.
6. That it takes years to establish and build a good reputation but only seconds to tear it all down.
7. That it really is okay to ask for help whenever you need it...after all, no one is "super human".
8. That sometimes the best things in life come along when you least expect it.
9. That it is okay to love, feel, act, etc. with whole hearted passion no matter the outcome or consequences...and that if in fact you don't, that may be the biggest mistake you ever make.
10. That no one said life would be easy, only that it would be worth it.
Monday, April 11, 2011
Story of the Day
Caleb recently attended a birthday party and part of his goody bag included a "fart" prank bag. Not wanting him to set it off inside of our house, he took it outdoors and had our local neighbor open said goody as he was having difficulty opening it.
Unfortunately my neighbor accidentally opened it (in his own dog's face no less) and his garage and dog now smell like raw sewage ;-)
Unfortunately my neighbor accidentally opened it (in his own dog's face no less) and his garage and dog now smell like raw sewage ;-)
Story of the Day
Caleb recently attended a birthday party and part of his goody bag included a "fart" prank bag. Not wanting him to set it off inside, he took it outdoors and had our local neighbor open said goody as he was having difficulty opening it.
Unfortunately my neighbor accidentally
Unfortunately my neighbor accidentally
Story of the Week
Preface:
I have a good friend who is friends with a person from another country. After meeting me he asked her the following:
"Is your friend a mullet?"
Taken aback she asked, "what do you mean is Shanna a mullet?"
As it turns out he was trying to ask her if I was biracial (and in his country that would be called "mulatto".)
With that said I am not biracial and will never sport a mullet hair style ;-)
I have a good friend who is friends with a person from another country. After meeting me he asked her the following:
"Is your friend a mullet?"
Taken aback she asked, "what do you mean is Shanna a mullet?"
As it turns out he was trying to ask her if I was biracial (and in his country that would be called "mulatto".)
With that said I am not biracial and will never sport a mullet hair style ;-)
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Seriously part II
Stop reporting my blogs! For the love, let me reitterate-don't like my views well just don't f*cking read them. Geez people-give me a freaking break already.
Friday, April 8, 2011
Trust me...I am well aware...
It's been a while since I've blogged and in an effort to catch everyone up (and not have to recap recent events repeatedly) I am simply going to give a brief rundown on the latest:
1. I am getting divorced. Yep, it's official- I get an "F" in marriage 101.
2. I love Caleb more than anything in this world and regardless of our recent (and major) life changes, will do everything I can to protect and love him.
3. Inevitably I will be asked a million times as to why I am getting a divorce so here it is in a simplified version: fundamentally Matt and I want different things, we are different people, we cannot meet each other's (very different) needs, we've tried really hard for the last year and a half to make it work but it simply didn't. There is not any major event and/or thing that led to this, rather, it's a cumulative combination of many, many things.
4. Yes, I will be remaining in Nicholasville.
5. I still love my job at Cardinal Hill but admit I am getting desperate for a second social worker to come on board. And I really, really miss working with Meredith. REALLY.
6. I have the greatest most supportive family in the world who love and support me even when they don't understand me or agree with the decisions I make.
7. I am blessed to have an extremely supportive ex husband and former in-laws- their support and love for Caleb is amazing.
8. I am very fortunate to be surrounded by wonderful people I love and are there for me each and every time I need them.
9. Divorce (or breaking up in any relationship for that matter) is never easy, but I sincerely believe each person(even if they cannot see it now) will be happier in the long run (with regards to my current situation).
10. Now (more than ever), I realize how important it is to live and be your true authentic self. You aren't doing yourself or anyone else any favors by living a lie or being too afraid to admit what your needs, beliefs, and values are even if it means something else has to end in order for you to be true to yourself. Life lessons are painful but inevitably necessary, healthy, and in the end make us better human beings.
1. I am getting divorced. Yep, it's official- I get an "F" in marriage 101.
2. I love Caleb more than anything in this world and regardless of our recent (and major) life changes, will do everything I can to protect and love him.
3. Inevitably I will be asked a million times as to why I am getting a divorce so here it is in a simplified version: fundamentally Matt and I want different things, we are different people, we cannot meet each other's (very different) needs, we've tried really hard for the last year and a half to make it work but it simply didn't. There is not any major event and/or thing that led to this, rather, it's a cumulative combination of many, many things.
4. Yes, I will be remaining in Nicholasville.
5. I still love my job at Cardinal Hill but admit I am getting desperate for a second social worker to come on board. And I really, really miss working with Meredith. REALLY.
6. I have the greatest most supportive family in the world who love and support me even when they don't understand me or agree with the decisions I make.
7. I am blessed to have an extremely supportive ex husband and former in-laws- their support and love for Caleb is amazing.
8. I am very fortunate to be surrounded by wonderful people I love and are there for me each and every time I need them.
9. Divorce (or breaking up in any relationship for that matter) is never easy, but I sincerely believe each person(even if they cannot see it now) will be happier in the long run (with regards to my current situation).
10. Now (more than ever), I realize how important it is to live and be your true authentic self. You aren't doing yourself or anyone else any favors by living a lie or being too afraid to admit what your needs, beliefs, and values are even if it means something else has to end in order for you to be true to yourself. Life lessons are painful but inevitably necessary, healthy, and in the end make us better human beings.
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Seriously
I would like to thank the person who "reported one of my blogs as hate or other". You know what? If you don't like it, then don't read it. Period.
Monday, March 28, 2011
Randomness Continued....
1. If I could not express myself through writing/blogging, I would suffocate (creatively speaking).
2. I loathe attending sports practices....I wish I didn't but alas I do.
3. Lola truly is a pig (in absolutely every sense of the word).
4. I believe evolution and spiritually are all encompassing. With that said, if you completely throw evolution out the window, we probably shouldn't be friends. Seriously.
5. Caleb once again received straight A's....while I am smart, I was never that smart so in that sense, I have only his father to thank.
6. I was told today that sometimes I am "too smart for my own good". You know what? That's probably true yet I am strangely okay with that.
7. I once had beautiful handwriting, alas, typing has all but destroyed that particular talent (although on the other hand, I am an excellent typist).
8. UK has finally (gasp) made it to the Final Four. We last "won it all" in 1998 when I was a freshman in college--and just for the record--it was awesome to be a part of it (especially as a student on campus at that time).
9. My favorite food currently is shrimp cocktail...thankfully it's low in fat.
10. I am a walking set of contradictions- simply ask anyone that knows me well. I demand attention yet I don't want to be smothered. I like feeling someone is taking care of me but only to the point it's pampering and not enabling.
11. I am the first to acknowledge that I am a far cry from perfection.
12. Fact: I love animals more than most humans.
13. Although I attempt to honor/respect all people's religious views, I find it quite extraordinary that some people continue to believe in an "immaculate conception". I mean....really?
14. I will never be a master chef or for that matter a fabulous cook, but in a pinch, I can pull it off :)
15. I may never lose those last 10 pounds...still, I do the best I can. Making peace with that is harder than most likely realize.
16. I will never be in my twenties again (at least not in this lifetime) but on the other hand, I have no desire to be (so no double edged sword there).
2. I loathe attending sports practices....I wish I didn't but alas I do.
3. Lola truly is a pig (in absolutely every sense of the word).
4. I believe evolution and spiritually are all encompassing. With that said, if you completely throw evolution out the window, we probably shouldn't be friends. Seriously.
5. Caleb once again received straight A's....while I am smart, I was never that smart so in that sense, I have only his father to thank.
6. I was told today that sometimes I am "too smart for my own good". You know what? That's probably true yet I am strangely okay with that.
7. I once had beautiful handwriting, alas, typing has all but destroyed that particular talent (although on the other hand, I am an excellent typist).
8. UK has finally (gasp) made it to the Final Four. We last "won it all" in 1998 when I was a freshman in college--and just for the record--it was awesome to be a part of it (especially as a student on campus at that time).
9. My favorite food currently is shrimp cocktail...thankfully it's low in fat.
10. I am a walking set of contradictions- simply ask anyone that knows me well. I demand attention yet I don't want to be smothered. I like feeling someone is taking care of me but only to the point it's pampering and not enabling.
11. I am the first to acknowledge that I am a far cry from perfection.
12. Fact: I love animals more than most humans.
13. Although I attempt to honor/respect all people's religious views, I find it quite extraordinary that some people continue to believe in an "immaculate conception". I mean....really?
14. I will never be a master chef or for that matter a fabulous cook, but in a pinch, I can pull it off :)
15. I may never lose those last 10 pounds...still, I do the best I can. Making peace with that is harder than most likely realize.
16. I will never be in my twenties again (at least not in this lifetime) but on the other hand, I have no desire to be (so no double edged sword there).
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Miscellaneous
According to Caleb, you are not "old" until you reach the age of thirty-five. Thanks babe-I still have a couple of more years before I am considered "old".
While driving in my car (in route to meet Caleb's Nana this morning) I saw the following(HUGE) sign: WRESTLING SATURDAY 7:30 PM. Seriously? There are no words....do I really live here? And more importantly, are people actually going to attend this event?
I did not get to watch the UK game last night due to my insomnia from the night before (even clothes pins could not have prevented my eyelids from closing). I am super pissed I missed it- great game and we actually beat the team (Ohio State) who was favored to win it all. With that said, I will not be missing tomorrow night's game at 5 PM...so insomnia beware.
How is it possible the weather has turned from a warm 80 degrees to a cold 38 degrees in less than 48 hours? Need further proof that it's cold? When I turned on the heat this morning Max (one of our hairless cats) sat directly on top of the vent in the bathroom and would probably crawl down inside of said vent if given the opportunity. With that said, I firmly believe Lola's tantrum from the other day (please see previous blogs) is directly related to the drastic change in weather.
I am attending a baby shower for one of my best friend's later this afternoon...and not to brag or anything but I think I may have bought the cutest items ever. The shower is a "tea party", however, the host and I have already concocted a plan to replace our tea with adult beverages.
While searching for a completely different item this morning, I finally discovered Caleb's missing birth certificate...alas, lesson learned- do not hide things for safe keeping if you cannot later remember the hiding place.
I already loved Lady GaGa's newest song ("Born this Way") but after really listening to the lyrics this morning I now love it even more.
While driving in my car (in route to meet Caleb's Nana this morning) I saw the following(HUGE) sign: WRESTLING SATURDAY 7:30 PM. Seriously? There are no words....do I really live here? And more importantly, are people actually going to attend this event?
I did not get to watch the UK game last night due to my insomnia from the night before (even clothes pins could not have prevented my eyelids from closing). I am super pissed I missed it- great game and we actually beat the team (Ohio State) who was favored to win it all. With that said, I will not be missing tomorrow night's game at 5 PM...so insomnia beware.
How is it possible the weather has turned from a warm 80 degrees to a cold 38 degrees in less than 48 hours? Need further proof that it's cold? When I turned on the heat this morning Max (one of our hairless cats) sat directly on top of the vent in the bathroom and would probably crawl down inside of said vent if given the opportunity. With that said, I firmly believe Lola's tantrum from the other day (please see previous blogs) is directly related to the drastic change in weather.
I am attending a baby shower for one of my best friend's later this afternoon...and not to brag or anything but I think I may have bought the cutest items ever. The shower is a "tea party", however, the host and I have already concocted a plan to replace our tea with adult beverages.
While searching for a completely different item this morning, I finally discovered Caleb's missing birth certificate...alas, lesson learned- do not hide things for safe keeping if you cannot later remember the hiding place.
I already loved Lady GaGa's newest song ("Born this Way") but after really listening to the lyrics this morning I now love it even more.
Quote of the Day
Preface:
This morning Caleb and his friend from next door were discussing their current favorite toys. Caleb responded by saying he really likes collecting and building Lego models, while his friend (consequently a female) stated she likes "My Little Ponies". Overhearing their conversation I remarked that I too, liked "My Little Ponies" when I was a little girl.
Caleb: (In all seriousness says) "You mean they had those that long ago"?
Thanks Caleb :)
This morning Caleb and his friend from next door were discussing their current favorite toys. Caleb responded by saying he really likes collecting and building Lego models, while his friend (consequently a female) stated she likes "My Little Ponies". Overhearing their conversation I remarked that I too, liked "My Little Ponies" when I was a little girl.
Caleb: (In all seriousness says) "You mean they had those that long ago"?
Thanks Caleb :)
Friday, March 25, 2011
Movie Date Night
Caleb and I went to the movies together this afternoon to watch "Diary of a Wimpy Kid" (Part II). Side note- the books are fantastic and I highly recommend them for children as well as parents. While the sequel was even better than the original, I must admit that the person who plays the character of "Roderick" (AKA Greg's older brother) is downright hot. Drums and eyeliner? Bring it ;) Mommy's everywhere...this is one I highly recommend.
Dear Botox and Such Part II
Dear Botox, etc.-
While I adore your results I must admit that up until today I have had headaches and facial pain (please note it's been one week since said injections). Alas, the bruise on the right side of my lip is finally fading (again, the injections were one week ago and although I bruise easily, a bruise that last for more than a week does seem excessive to me). With that said, I would and will do it all again. See you again in 4 months Botox.
XOXOOXOXOXO,
S
While I adore your results I must admit that up until today I have had headaches and facial pain (please note it's been one week since said injections). Alas, the bruise on the right side of my lip is finally fading (again, the injections were one week ago and although I bruise easily, a bruise that last for more than a week does seem excessive to me). With that said, I would and will do it all again. See you again in 4 months Botox.
XOXOOXOXOXO,
S
Friday
Dear Friday-
I have missed you greatly. You have my sincere gratitude in treating me kindly today after I received a mere four hours of restless sleep last night. I am in your debt.
Sincerely Yours,
S
I have missed you greatly. You have my sincere gratitude in treating me kindly today after I received a mere four hours of restless sleep last night. I am in your debt.
Sincerely Yours,
S
Lola
Dear Lola-
Thank you for leaving the house intact today...honestly I don't think I could have handled it had I arrived home and discovered differently.
Sincerely,
S
Thank you for leaving the house intact today...honestly I don't think I could have handled it had I arrived home and discovered differently.
Sincerely,
S
Random Thought of the Day...
Despite the explosive media surrounding it's initial release, REM's song "Losing My Religion" was in fact not actually about religion at all (according to the band). Regardless of the band's explanation, listeners drew their own conclusions (which in my opinion were quite the opposite of what the lyrics actually suggested/represented). Furthermore, to add to the irony of the situation, I was in the sixth grade attending a Catholic school at the time of the band's release and instantly fell in love with the song. Want to think about that?
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Insomnia
Dear Insomnia-
Please go lay down somewhere so that I can as well.
Thanks,
S
PS-it is not Thursday at 11:35 pm as posted....sigh it is 2:39 AM
Please go lay down somewhere so that I can as well.
Thanks,
S
PS-it is not Thursday at 11:35 pm as posted....sigh it is 2:39 AM
Lola
"Sometimes I am my own worst enemy"-lyric from the band Third Eye Blind
When I arrived home this evening it appeared that WW III hit my home. Apparently, Lola declared war on the house while I was away. Upon return from work, it became apparent Lola was clearly upset over something and acting out. To summarize: end tables and other furniture was overturned, pee pads (soiled no doubt) were shredded to pieces, four blankets were soiled, and pig droppings (AKA urine and feces) was visible in both the living room and kitchen. Lola, what message are you trying to send? Clearly you are upset and trying to demonstrate as such. My ideal way of ending my ever increasing hectic work day is NOT spending 45 minutes cleaning/mopping/doing laundry, etc. because you are unhappy. Any insight on your part would be greatly appreciated on my end.
Sincerely,
S
When I arrived home this evening it appeared that WW III hit my home. Apparently, Lola declared war on the house while I was away. Upon return from work, it became apparent Lola was clearly upset over something and acting out. To summarize: end tables and other furniture was overturned, pee pads (soiled no doubt) were shredded to pieces, four blankets were soiled, and pig droppings (AKA urine and feces) was visible in both the living room and kitchen. Lola, what message are you trying to send? Clearly you are upset and trying to demonstrate as such. My ideal way of ending my ever increasing hectic work day is NOT spending 45 minutes cleaning/mopping/doing laundry, etc. because you are unhappy. Any insight on your part would be greatly appreciated on my end.
Sincerely,
S
Lola
"Sometimes I am my own worst enemy"-source unknown
When I arrived home this evening it appeared that WW III hit my home. Apparently, Lola declared war on the house while I was away. Upon return from work, it became apparent Lola was clearly upset over something and acting out. To summarize, end tables and other furniture was overturned, pee pads (soiled no doubt) were shredded to pieces, four blankets were soiled, and pig droppings (AKA urine and feces) was visible in both the living room and kitchen. Lola, what message are you trying to send? Clearly you are upset and trying to demonstrate as such. My ideal way of ending my ever increasing hectic work day is NOT spending 45 minutes cleaning/mopping/doing laundry, etc. because you are unhappy. Any insight on your part would be greatly appreciated on my end.
Sincerely,
S
When I arrived home this evening it appeared that WW III hit my home. Apparently, Lola declared war on the house while I was away. Upon return from work, it became apparent Lola was clearly upset over something and acting out. To summarize, end tables and other furniture was overturned, pee pads (soiled no doubt) were shredded to pieces, four blankets were soiled, and pig droppings (AKA urine and feces) was visible in both the living room and kitchen. Lola, what message are you trying to send? Clearly you are upset and trying to demonstrate as such. My ideal way of ending my ever increasing hectic work day is NOT spending 45 minutes cleaning/mopping/doing laundry, etc. because you are unhappy. Any insight on your part would be greatly appreciated on my end.
Sincerely,
S
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Random Part One Million and Two and Counting...
1. I accidentally flashed everyone in the lobby at work today as I was walking outdoors to my car- I was wearing a dress and it was extremely windy. FML.
2. Regardless of the day of the week I nearly always wake up between 6 and 7 AM (although if it's the weekend I'll likely take a nap later in the day).
3. I am not a vegetarian but I am not much of a meat eater...it just doesn't appeal to me.
4. I love to drink sugar free Redbull (even though research indicates all energy drinks are dangerous if not downright poisonous).
5. I am in love with "Animal" from the Muppets.
6. Reading my Psychopathology book makes me feel more normal. I am not sure whether I should find this alarming or not.
7. I am a sucker for 80's movies and documentaries involving time travel, etc. (think Stephen Hawking).
8. I am addicted to tattoos and want at least two more.
9. I wish I was able to have a nose piercing again (alas, my job does not permit this).
10. I still haven't figured myself out yet even though I am 32 years old. Normal? Maybe, maybe not.
11. I really enjoy working with brain injury clients which is surprising to me because initially I thought I'd feel differently.
12. I dreamed Lola was "hog-zilla" last night so she appeared very small in stature when I came downstairs this morning.
13. I frequently have dreams in which my teeth either fall out or I am in school and have missed multiple classes and am unprepared for the exam. I hate both of these dreams.
14. Gas prices are outrageous...let's go "green" already. Seriously, do we really want our future grandchildren to inherit a filthy uninhabitable planet?
15. My hair is finally very long again and I couldn't be more happy about that.
16. I don't know which I despise more- removing eye make up each day or plucking my eyebrows.
17. The new season of True Blood cannot come soon enough and it had better follow along with the novel series --SPOILER ALERT--(AKA Erik and Sookie hooking up).
18. Despite the above statement I still love William Compton.
19. At present, I have never worked so hard professionally in my entire life-yet I feel it's worth it.
20. I may wear black nail polish until the day I die.
21. My left hand (fingers and feet) are slightly smaller than my right-normal? Maybe, maybe not.
22. I nearly always dread going to the gym but always feel better afterwards.
23. Fact: my new job has resulted in at least a 5 pound weight loss and counting (no complaints there).
24. I am very anxious my coworker/office mate will soon be leaving and I will be flying solo (at least temporarily).
25. The local weather station just predicted possible snow this weekend...if this happens, I may permanently move.
26. I freely admit I am a perfectionist and a Type A personality to the T :-)
27. I love watching true crime shows (particularly the Investigative Discovery channel).
28. I also love watching unsolved true life mysteries such as "Disappeared".
29. I love my son dearly but will never have more children. Period.
30. I do not understand social workers who do not vote Democrat given the NASW Code of Ethics (no judgment- just curious). Regardless I have many friends and coworkers who are not Democrat and I respect and love them all dearly.
2. Regardless of the day of the week I nearly always wake up between 6 and 7 AM (although if it's the weekend I'll likely take a nap later in the day).
3. I am not a vegetarian but I am not much of a meat eater...it just doesn't appeal to me.
4. I love to drink sugar free Redbull (even though research indicates all energy drinks are dangerous if not downright poisonous).
5. I am in love with "Animal" from the Muppets.
6. Reading my Psychopathology book makes me feel more normal. I am not sure whether I should find this alarming or not.
7. I am a sucker for 80's movies and documentaries involving time travel, etc. (think Stephen Hawking).
8. I am addicted to tattoos and want at least two more.
9. I wish I was able to have a nose piercing again (alas, my job does not permit this).
10. I still haven't figured myself out yet even though I am 32 years old. Normal? Maybe, maybe not.
11. I really enjoy working with brain injury clients which is surprising to me because initially I thought I'd feel differently.
12. I dreamed Lola was "hog-zilla" last night so she appeared very small in stature when I came downstairs this morning.
13. I frequently have dreams in which my teeth either fall out or I am in school and have missed multiple classes and am unprepared for the exam. I hate both of these dreams.
14. Gas prices are outrageous...let's go "green" already. Seriously, do we really want our future grandchildren to inherit a filthy uninhabitable planet?
15. My hair is finally very long again and I couldn't be more happy about that.
16. I don't know which I despise more- removing eye make up each day or plucking my eyebrows.
17. The new season of True Blood cannot come soon enough and it had better follow along with the novel series --SPOILER ALERT--(AKA Erik and Sookie hooking up).
18. Despite the above statement I still love William Compton.
19. At present, I have never worked so hard professionally in my entire life-yet I feel it's worth it.
20. I may wear black nail polish until the day I die.
21. My left hand (fingers and feet) are slightly smaller than my right-normal? Maybe, maybe not.
22. I nearly always dread going to the gym but always feel better afterwards.
23. Fact: my new job has resulted in at least a 5 pound weight loss and counting (no complaints there).
24. I am very anxious my coworker/office mate will soon be leaving and I will be flying solo (at least temporarily).
25. The local weather station just predicted possible snow this weekend...if this happens, I may permanently move.
26. I freely admit I am a perfectionist and a Type A personality to the T :-)
27. I love watching true crime shows (particularly the Investigative Discovery channel).
28. I also love watching unsolved true life mysteries such as "Disappeared".
29. I love my son dearly but will never have more children. Period.
30. I do not understand social workers who do not vote Democrat given the NASW Code of Ethics (no judgment- just curious). Regardless I have many friends and coworkers who are not Democrat and I respect and love them all dearly.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Botox and Such
Dear Botox-
You're fabulous (in case you didn't already know). Juvaderm-you're fabulous as well but what is up with the bruising? Seriously-twice today (despite concealer) I've had two people tell me I have a smudge/mark on my face. Must you make me look like a domestic violence victim?
Eternally grateful,
S
You're fabulous (in case you didn't already know). Juvaderm-you're fabulous as well but what is up with the bruising? Seriously-twice today (despite concealer) I've had two people tell me I have a smudge/mark on my face. Must you make me look like a domestic violence victim?
Eternally grateful,
S
Excerpts from Lola
Dear mommy-
Today it actually made it to an uncharacteristically high of 80 degrees. Please tell Caleb how thankful I am he cleaned and refilled my swimming pool yesterday (now you don't have to chase after me with the swifter wet jet).
PS-I am so happy corn has been restocked at our local Wal-mart-but what's the deal with the recent carrot shortage?
Yours,
Lola ^_^
Today it actually made it to an uncharacteristically high of 80 degrees. Please tell Caleb how thankful I am he cleaned and refilled my swimming pool yesterday (now you don't have to chase after me with the swifter wet jet).
PS-I am so happy corn has been restocked at our local Wal-mart-but what's the deal with the recent carrot shortage?
Yours,
Lola ^_^
Bad Parenting?
Dear powers that be-
Am I a bad parent because I pray for rain each time it's my turn to take Caleb to baseball practice? Surely I am not the only parent who performs a rain dance in the hopes of practice cancellation.
Sincerely,
S
Am I a bad parent because I pray for rain each time it's my turn to take Caleb to baseball practice? Surely I am not the only parent who performs a rain dance in the hopes of practice cancellation.
Sincerely,
S
Wonders never cease...
Dear Margaret (and Board),
You have my sincere gratitude in finally approving my LCSW contract. I must admit my faith was shaken initially but it turns out that sometimes the third time really is a charm.
Sincerely,
S
You have my sincere gratitude in finally approving my LCSW contract. I must admit my faith was shaken initially but it turns out that sometimes the third time really is a charm.
Sincerely,
S
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Taking the plunge (well sort of)...
I admit it-I cannot imagine why anyone would feel the need to deny it- but I received Botox and Juvaderm (filler) for the first time today. The prices were reasonable and the customer service/staff were excellent. Pain was minimal (for the Botox) but a bit painful with regard to the Juvaderm filler (though not intolerable). With that said, I am pleased with the results thus far (however results wont be fully visible until Tuesday) and I plan on continuing with maintenance follow ups (as needed). I in no way consider myself vain (well maybe just a bit) but I do believe that taking preventative (and early) measures to prevent wrinkles is completely justified (for those who prefer to slow the aging process cosmetically). In no way is my goal to try and achieve celebrity/super model status...I do not want Mick Jagger lips nor Joan River results....I simply want a natural, youthful appearance. I am thankful for the medical breakthroughs for those who would like to (at least slightly) slow down Mother Nature :).
Friday, March 18, 2011
Excerpts from Lola
Dear Mommy-
It's 77 degrees outside today! Can you believe it? I have really enjoyed playing in the backyard today. I really appreciate the fact you changed the water in my swimming pool this afternoon. I know you did your best to clean out the muddy residue from the previous water, however; some of it stayed behind and resulted in me getting muddy (again). I am really sorry. At least we have new batteries for the Swifter Wet Jet.
Always,
Lola ^_^
It's 77 degrees outside today! Can you believe it? I have really enjoyed playing in the backyard today. I really appreciate the fact you changed the water in my swimming pool this afternoon. I know you did your best to clean out the muddy residue from the previous water, however; some of it stayed behind and resulted in me getting muddy (again). I am really sorry. At least we have new batteries for the Swifter Wet Jet.
Always,
Lola ^_^
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Clarification
In my previous blog (with regard to the sexual abuse allegations regarding a Catholic priest in Owensboro, KY) I would like to make the following clarifications:
1. Yes, unfortunately many children are molested every day by parents, caregivers, priests, family friends, neighbors, etc.- my intention was never to accuse only Catholic priests or bad mouth Catholicism in general. Rather, my point was to reiterate the fact that any person that holds a position of power (such as a priest, teacher, boss, etc.) can and sometimes does abuse their position of power (in some cases resulting in the molestation of children)and when/if an allegation is made, it warrants an objective investigation.
2. I am not "targeting easy individuals" accused of molestation-rather I am simply trying to point out that persons who have power over others have a certain responsibility and obligation to act in an appropriate manner and if accused of inappropriate behaviors and/or acts, be subjected to a fair and objective investigation.
3. I am in no way persecuting or labeling Catholics in general...if anything I am simply stating I no longer agree or affiliate myself with that faith. For those who do, that's fine and for those who do not, fine. My intention is not to judge but rather share my opinion (which for the record is my opinion only). I do believe in spirituality but feel organized religion is corrupt and incorrect. This is my opinion and my opinion only. I believe in reincarnation and many other "non-mainstream" ideas.....I will respect your beliefs if you will in turn simply respect mine. Agreeing on the issue is not relevant...what is relevant is respecting the ideas and opinions of others.
1. Yes, unfortunately many children are molested every day by parents, caregivers, priests, family friends, neighbors, etc.- my intention was never to accuse only Catholic priests or bad mouth Catholicism in general. Rather, my point was to reiterate the fact that any person that holds a position of power (such as a priest, teacher, boss, etc.) can and sometimes does abuse their position of power (in some cases resulting in the molestation of children)and when/if an allegation is made, it warrants an objective investigation.
2. I am not "targeting easy individuals" accused of molestation-rather I am simply trying to point out that persons who have power over others have a certain responsibility and obligation to act in an appropriate manner and if accused of inappropriate behaviors and/or acts, be subjected to a fair and objective investigation.
3. I am in no way persecuting or labeling Catholics in general...if anything I am simply stating I no longer agree or affiliate myself with that faith. For those who do, that's fine and for those who do not, fine. My intention is not to judge but rather share my opinion (which for the record is my opinion only). I do believe in spirituality but feel organized religion is corrupt and incorrect. This is my opinion and my opinion only. I believe in reincarnation and many other "non-mainstream" ideas.....I will respect your beliefs if you will in turn simply respect mine. Agreeing on the issue is not relevant...what is relevant is respecting the ideas and opinions of others.
World issues
"I'm in love with the world through the eyes of a girl."-Source unknown
My heart hurts for Japan. Not only was their country hit with a catastrophic earthquake but it was then followed by a devastating Tsunami. To further complicate their horrific predicament, Japan is now facing not only one but multiple possibilities of a nuclear reactor meltdown. Apparently, the agency behind some of the nuclear plants in Japan have been less than forthcoming with information about the realities of the situation. I sincerely pray for each and every Japanese citizen. I hope they will (along with all others) not only escape this tragedy but that the world will also learn from it.
My heart hurts for Japan. Not only was their country hit with a catastrophic earthquake but it was then followed by a devastating Tsunami. To further complicate their horrific predicament, Japan is now facing not only one but multiple possibilities of a nuclear reactor meltdown. Apparently, the agency behind some of the nuclear plants in Japan have been less than forthcoming with information about the realities of the situation. I sincerely pray for each and every Japanese citizen. I hope they will (along with all others) not only escape this tragedy but that the world will also learn from it.
Quote of the week
Quote of the Day:
Literally waiting on the world to change...so what is taking so long?
Literally waiting on the world to change...so what is taking so long?
Excerpts from Lola
Dear mommy-
I was so excited this morning when you (in your clearly sleep deprived state) accidentally fed the cats my food and fed me their food. I don't think I've ever tasted anything so good. I am sorry I fought you when (after realizing the food mix up) you tried to take my food pan away from me. I guess I just love cat food-perhaps you should try it-you don't know what you're missing.
Always,
Lola ^_^
I was so excited this morning when you (in your clearly sleep deprived state) accidentally fed the cats my food and fed me their food. I don't think I've ever tasted anything so good. I am sorry I fought you when (after realizing the food mix up) you tried to take my food pan away from me. I guess I just love cat food-perhaps you should try it-you don't know what you're missing.
Always,
Lola ^_^
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Soapbox
"This week starts Lent and for the 35th year in a row I'm giving up Catholicism"-Bill Maher
I would not even begin to broach this subject had I not been raised Catholic and attended Catholic school for numerous years. With that said, I in no way consider myself to be a Catholic at this time. I am not only outraged but also horrified with regard to the suicide that occurred in Owensboro, KY a few weeks ago at Blessed Mother Church. Not only did this bright, attractive, and promising young man commit suicide but he also left a detailed note (on his facebook page) on what prompted his suicide. To summarize, this poor person was subjected to years of sexual abuse within the Catholic church (at the hands of trusted priests)whom all failed to recognize or at the very least take action-including his own family. I was sickened to read the Owensboro newspaper response from the church following the suicide which basically stated that the priest in question was not only one of their most popular and well liked priest but that no investigation would be conducted. Regardless of your place of employment, if someone makes a legitimate complaint, it needs to be investigated fully. Once again, I am disgusted at those whose main attempt is to simply close their eyes, turn the other way, and push things under the rug. Seriously, God have mercy on their souls (as clearly they are going to need it).
I would not even begin to broach this subject had I not been raised Catholic and attended Catholic school for numerous years. With that said, I in no way consider myself to be a Catholic at this time. I am not only outraged but also horrified with regard to the suicide that occurred in Owensboro, KY a few weeks ago at Blessed Mother Church. Not only did this bright, attractive, and promising young man commit suicide but he also left a detailed note (on his facebook page) on what prompted his suicide. To summarize, this poor person was subjected to years of sexual abuse within the Catholic church (at the hands of trusted priests)whom all failed to recognize or at the very least take action-including his own family. I was sickened to read the Owensboro newspaper response from the church following the suicide which basically stated that the priest in question was not only one of their most popular and well liked priest but that no investigation would be conducted. Regardless of your place of employment, if someone makes a legitimate complaint, it needs to be investigated fully. Once again, I am disgusted at those whose main attempt is to simply close their eyes, turn the other way, and push things under the rug. Seriously, God have mercy on their souls (as clearly they are going to need it).
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Things I've Learned...
1. Retirement and insurance actually do matter (though it seems insignificant when you're young).
2. Good friends are hard to come by- don't let them go easily.
3. Pigs (even mini pot belly pigs) are more work than you think (trust me-I know this from experience).
4. Alcohol can temporarily eradicate your problems but in the end they still exist and must be dealt with.
5. Sadly there are dishonest, manipulative people out there- be-warned and beware.
6. Nursing homes in general suck and euthanasia should (in my opinion) not only be an option but a humane alternative (please watch the movie "You Don't Know Jack" before making an informed decision).
7. The DS 3-D is overpriced. Period.
8. Margaret (in Frankfort) may hate me but I truly believe I will ultimately succeed (with regards to obtaining my LCSW supervision).
9. Life is unpredictable and any attempts to try and control it are futile (much to my OCD chagrin).
10. Your choices as an adult can be permanent so choose wisely.
11. Avoid tanning beds at all costs- they're the devil in disguise- you're better off starting up a botox savings fund.
2. Good friends are hard to come by- don't let them go easily.
3. Pigs (even mini pot belly pigs) are more work than you think (trust me-I know this from experience).
4. Alcohol can temporarily eradicate your problems but in the end they still exist and must be dealt with.
5. Sadly there are dishonest, manipulative people out there- be-warned and beware.
6. Nursing homes in general suck and euthanasia should (in my opinion) not only be an option but a humane alternative (please watch the movie "You Don't Know Jack" before making an informed decision).
7. The DS 3-D is overpriced. Period.
8. Margaret (in Frankfort) may hate me but I truly believe I will ultimately succeed (with regards to obtaining my LCSW supervision).
9. Life is unpredictable and any attempts to try and control it are futile (much to my OCD chagrin).
10. Your choices as an adult can be permanent so choose wisely.
11. Avoid tanning beds at all costs- they're the devil in disguise- you're better off starting up a botox savings fund.
Monday, March 14, 2011
Random Part One Million and Counting...
1. My favorite songs right now are "F*ck You" by Cee Lo Green and "Born This Way" by Lady Gaga (go figure).
2. Had I known my sister Erica and her boyfriend would be living in Louisville, I would have purchased tickets to the Lady Gaga concert in Louisville this past weekend.
3. I feel only slightly guilty that I prayed for rain today and it actually happened simply because I didn't want to sit through 2 hours of Caleb's ball practice.
4. I have neglected blogging lately because my new job is kicking my tail but I love it and the salary raise is a HUGE perk.
5. Although I love "springing forward" due to Daylight Savings Time, it totally messes with my mind and body (apparently I am not the only one as statistics state more accidents occur following the week of "springing forward or falling back" one hour each time the clocks change).
6. I am convinced my animals purposely wait for my arrival home to try and destroy the house. Sadly, I am beginning to be okay with this.
7. Although I care nothing for "American Idol" the few episodes I've watched this season have resulted in me worshiping Steven Tyler even more than I previously did.
8. I (and apparently the rest of the world) think Charlie Sheen has truly lost it. I mean, tiger blood? Seriously?
9. My number one way to deal with stress? Organize and clean, thus resulting in OCD like behavior (just ask my coworkers and closest friends).
10. I actually sang Karaoke on the night of my last day of work at my former job....thankfully no one recorded my rendition of Vanilla Ice's "Ice Ice Baby". (Seriously, how do I even remember the lyrics after all these years?!)
11. Biggest turnoff (regardless of gender?) Those who brag and are self-absorbed.
12. My favorite flowers are red roses and white magnolias.
13. I've gotten lost approximately every single day at my new job- that place is enormous and after the beginning of week 4 I have only begun to figure out the first floor (alas there are three floors and counting as they are building on a massive new portion...sigh).
14. I despise dishonesty. I also hate "not knowing"-good or bad, just give it to me straight and don't make me wait.
15. Caleb wants a DS 3-D (available this month). Chances are it wont happen as the going rate is $360.00. I mean seriously....
16. I wake up at least once a night...sometimes it's when I have my greatest ideas/inspirations while other times it's simply annoying.
17. Now that I am immersed in medical social work, I have a lot to talk about to the facility my grandmother (who has Alzheimers) once I return to visit her.
18. I hate to iron and at all cost attempt to buy things that require zero ironing and zero dry cleaning. I attribute this to the fact I had to iron my school uniform every day during my entire high school career.
19. I admire those who are direct but do so in a manner which is both sensitive, kind, and humorous.
20. Chalk it up to the Libra in me but I am extremely jealous and competitive.
21. I'm thrilled my sister Amanda moved back to Manhatten...upper East side-well, I am all about it.
22. My life long debilitating quality is a tendency towards self-sabotage....hey I'm working on it.
23. Sometimes I wonder if I love animals more than people- they are faithful, trusting, and love you unconditionally.
24. I am more psyched for the beginning of season 4 of "True Blood" to start than is likely considered "normal".
25. I've tried attending various church services....alas, I feel like a fraud....organized religion simply is not for me.
2. Had I known my sister Erica and her boyfriend would be living in Louisville, I would have purchased tickets to the Lady Gaga concert in Louisville this past weekend.
3. I feel only slightly guilty that I prayed for rain today and it actually happened simply because I didn't want to sit through 2 hours of Caleb's ball practice.
4. I have neglected blogging lately because my new job is kicking my tail but I love it and the salary raise is a HUGE perk.
5. Although I love "springing forward" due to Daylight Savings Time, it totally messes with my mind and body (apparently I am not the only one as statistics state more accidents occur following the week of "springing forward or falling back" one hour each time the clocks change).
6. I am convinced my animals purposely wait for my arrival home to try and destroy the house. Sadly, I am beginning to be okay with this.
7. Although I care nothing for "American Idol" the few episodes I've watched this season have resulted in me worshiping Steven Tyler even more than I previously did.
8. I (and apparently the rest of the world) think Charlie Sheen has truly lost it. I mean, tiger blood? Seriously?
9. My number one way to deal with stress? Organize and clean, thus resulting in OCD like behavior (just ask my coworkers and closest friends).
10. I actually sang Karaoke on the night of my last day of work at my former job....thankfully no one recorded my rendition of Vanilla Ice's "Ice Ice Baby". (Seriously, how do I even remember the lyrics after all these years?!)
11. Biggest turnoff (regardless of gender?) Those who brag and are self-absorbed.
12. My favorite flowers are red roses and white magnolias.
13. I've gotten lost approximately every single day at my new job- that place is enormous and after the beginning of week 4 I have only begun to figure out the first floor (alas there are three floors and counting as they are building on a massive new portion...sigh).
14. I despise dishonesty. I also hate "not knowing"-good or bad, just give it to me straight and don't make me wait.
15. Caleb wants a DS 3-D (available this month). Chances are it wont happen as the going rate is $360.00. I mean seriously....
16. I wake up at least once a night...sometimes it's when I have my greatest ideas/inspirations while other times it's simply annoying.
17. Now that I am immersed in medical social work, I have a lot to talk about to the facility my grandmother (who has Alzheimers) once I return to visit her.
18. I hate to iron and at all cost attempt to buy things that require zero ironing and zero dry cleaning. I attribute this to the fact I had to iron my school uniform every day during my entire high school career.
19. I admire those who are direct but do so in a manner which is both sensitive, kind, and humorous.
20. Chalk it up to the Libra in me but I am extremely jealous and competitive.
21. I'm thrilled my sister Amanda moved back to Manhatten...upper East side-well, I am all about it.
22. My life long debilitating quality is a tendency towards self-sabotage....hey I'm working on it.
23. Sometimes I wonder if I love animals more than people- they are faithful, trusting, and love you unconditionally.
24. I am more psyched for the beginning of season 4 of "True Blood" to start than is likely considered "normal".
25. I've tried attending various church services....alas, I feel like a fraud....organized religion simply is not for me.
Excerpts from Lola
Dear Mommy-
I was so happy I got to play outside this past weekend. I played in the dirt and nearly dug out a hole for Izzie so she can climb under the fence whenever she wants to. In fact, I thought it was so warm that after playing in the dirt I decided to jump into my swimming pool (which actually had water in it due to all of the rain we've had recently). I'm really sorry that after jumping into my pool I became really muddy and left muddy pig prints all over your kitchen. Perhaps you should consider changing my pool water (as it is now dark brown from all of the mud). I noticed on your FB page you have a picture of a pig wearing boots...perhaps this is something we can look into since I refuse to let you clean my hooves whenever they become muddy and you are then forced to chase me around the downstairs area with the Swifter Wet Jet mop. Again, I am really sorry about all of the mud (on both Saturday and Sunday).
Yours,
Lola ^_^
I was so happy I got to play outside this past weekend. I played in the dirt and nearly dug out a hole for Izzie so she can climb under the fence whenever she wants to. In fact, I thought it was so warm that after playing in the dirt I decided to jump into my swimming pool (which actually had water in it due to all of the rain we've had recently). I'm really sorry that after jumping into my pool I became really muddy and left muddy pig prints all over your kitchen. Perhaps you should consider changing my pool water (as it is now dark brown from all of the mud). I noticed on your FB page you have a picture of a pig wearing boots...perhaps this is something we can look into since I refuse to let you clean my hooves whenever they become muddy and you are then forced to chase me around the downstairs area with the Swifter Wet Jet mop. Again, I am really sorry about all of the mud (on both Saturday and Sunday).
Yours,
Lola ^_^
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Game On....
Preface: This morning I spoke with Caleb's Nana to arrange a time for him to return home today. Nana informed me he wouldn't be ready to come back until after 4 PM as he had a racquetball match against another child (consequently a girl) who is in his Sunday school class. When asked how his weekend went Caleb stated he'd been practicing racquetball since Saturday in preparation for today's match.
Caleb: "I had granddaddy take me to the center yesterday to practice a racquetball because I have to make sure I win...especially since I'm playing against a girl."
Caleb: "I had granddaddy take me to the center yesterday to practice a racquetball because I have to make sure I win...especially since I'm playing against a girl."
Game On....
Preface: This morning I spoke with Caleb's Nana to arrange a time for him to return home today. Nana informed me he wouldn't be ready to come back
Excerpts from Lola
Dear Mommy-
Let me begin by saying how happy I was you spent all day yesterday with me. I really liked snuggling with you and taking a nap with you. Even though you spent the day with me, I became very angry when you went upstairs to begin getting ready to go out with Matt for the evening (my first clue was when I heard you turn on the shower then again when you turned on your hair dryer). Out of frustration, I decided to show you how angry I was by pooping and peeing on the floor (twice), shredding up my unused pee pad, and dragging out the cat litter waste box (though this time I was unable to open it) all while you were getting ready. Then when Matt arrived home from work and I knew your departure was imminent, I decided to poop and pee on the floor again (after you had already cleaned up my earlier messes). I'm sorry for my temper tantrum-I only wanted you to stay home with me. I'm really sorry.
Always,
Lola ^-^
PS-At least I didn't act out while you guys were out.
Let me begin by saying how happy I was you spent all day yesterday with me. I really liked snuggling with you and taking a nap with you. Even though you spent the day with me, I became very angry when you went upstairs to begin getting ready to go out with Matt for the evening (my first clue was when I heard you turn on the shower then again when you turned on your hair dryer). Out of frustration, I decided to show you how angry I was by pooping and peeing on the floor (twice), shredding up my unused pee pad, and dragging out the cat litter waste box (though this time I was unable to open it) all while you were getting ready. Then when Matt arrived home from work and I knew your departure was imminent, I decided to poop and pee on the floor again (after you had already cleaned up my earlier messes). I'm sorry for my temper tantrum-I only wanted you to stay home with me. I'm really sorry.
Always,
Lola ^-^
PS-At least I didn't act out while you guys were out.
Chantix
Dear Chantix-
It's Day 13 and I continue to be stuck at just under 3 cigarettes per a day. I am determined to quit once and for all (especially since I have to travel quite far at my new job each time I need to smoke as the campus is smoke free). If I begin taking you as prescribed (in the morning AND in the evening), will you promise not to give me nightmares or mess with my body?
Your Slave (still),
S
It's Day 13 and I continue to be stuck at just under 3 cigarettes per a day. I am determined to quit once and for all (especially since I have to travel quite far at my new job each time I need to smoke as the campus is smoke free). If I begin taking you as prescribed (in the morning AND in the evening), will you promise not to give me nightmares or mess with my body?
Your Slave (still),
S
Friday, February 25, 2011
Dear Chantix
(Day 11)
Dear Chantix-
You have not only won the battle but also the war. Although I continue to have very strange dreams (even though I only take you in the morning as opposed to the prescribed instructions of "one in the morning and one in the evening") I rarely have stomach upsets at this time. I am now smoking 1-3 cigarettes per day. By day 14 I will have quit entirely. Although I have hated every step of this journey, thank you for sticking with me- smoke free in 3 days is quite the accomplishment.
Yours,
S
Dear Chantix-
You have not only won the battle but also the war. Although I continue to have very strange dreams (even though I only take you in the morning as opposed to the prescribed instructions of "one in the morning and one in the evening") I rarely have stomach upsets at this time. I am now smoking 1-3 cigarettes per day. By day 14 I will have quit entirely. Although I have hated every step of this journey, thank you for sticking with me- smoke free in 3 days is quite the accomplishment.
Yours,
S
More Random....
1. Leigh is my middle name but I (unknowingly) spelled it wrong (Liegh) until I was twelve years old.
2. Although I enjoy watching movies, I really prefer renting them as opposed to going to the theater.
3. I am always punctual and it irritates me when others consistently are not.
4. I often eat the same foods repeatedly (for months at a time) before I then grow tired of said foods and repeat the entire process with different foods.
5. Although I have given up nicotine, I don't see myself ever eliminating my caffeine addiction (two Diet Dr. Pepper's a day).
6. I wish I could review my life and state I have no regrets; alas, that is untrue.
7. I require at minimum 8 hours of sleep to operate at my optimum self...yet 10 hours is my preference (though often unattainable).
8. I have a crush on Hugh Jackman and Johnny Depp...and nearly everyone else on the cast of "True Blood".
9. I just paid off all of my credit cards and it felt great...in fact, priceless.
10. Although I despise going to the mall, my favorite stores are Express and The Limited.
11. I am not above going to Good Will stores, however, I refuse to go to TJ Maxx or Marshall's because I hate to "dig" for clothes.
12. Although I still have a lot to learn, I am completely digging my new job (except for the fact I can no longer wear jeans to work).
13. Although motivation for going to the gym is sometimes (often times) lacking, I ALWAYS feel better afterwards.
14. I am currently in love with shrimp cocktail (thankfully it's low fat and healthy).
15. I love my animals but they seem determined to make my life difficult (daily).
16. I recently completed a children's book on Lola (my micro pig)...next step: begin mailing it out to various publishers.
17. My son constantly amazes me and makes me laugh.
18. My sister Amanda recently moved back into Manhattan...her view is of the Empire State Building...I am extremely jealous.
2. Although I enjoy watching movies, I really prefer renting them as opposed to going to the theater.
3. I am always punctual and it irritates me when others consistently are not.
4. I often eat the same foods repeatedly (for months at a time) before I then grow tired of said foods and repeat the entire process with different foods.
5. Although I have given up nicotine, I don't see myself ever eliminating my caffeine addiction (two Diet Dr. Pepper's a day).
6. I wish I could review my life and state I have no regrets; alas, that is untrue.
7. I require at minimum 8 hours of sleep to operate at my optimum self...yet 10 hours is my preference (though often unattainable).
8. I have a crush on Hugh Jackman and Johnny Depp...and nearly everyone else on the cast of "True Blood".
9. I just paid off all of my credit cards and it felt great...in fact, priceless.
10. Although I despise going to the mall, my favorite stores are Express and The Limited.
11. I am not above going to Good Will stores, however, I refuse to go to TJ Maxx or Marshall's because I hate to "dig" for clothes.
12. Although I still have a lot to learn, I am completely digging my new job (except for the fact I can no longer wear jeans to work).
13. Although motivation for going to the gym is sometimes (often times) lacking, I ALWAYS feel better afterwards.
14. I am currently in love with shrimp cocktail (thankfully it's low fat and healthy).
15. I love my animals but they seem determined to make my life difficult (daily).
16. I recently completed a children's book on Lola (my micro pig)...next step: begin mailing it out to various publishers.
17. My son constantly amazes me and makes me laugh.
18. My sister Amanda recently moved back into Manhattan...her view is of the Empire State Building...I am extremely jealous.
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Latest
Loving my new job...blogging is slow due to sheer exhaustion of simply transitioning from one job to another...more to come this weekend. Luckily, tomorrow (Thursday) is my Friday.
P.S. Down to 4 cigs or less per a day- yay me!
P.S. Down to 4 cigs or less per a day- yay me!
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Glory Days
One of my favorite songs has always been “Glory Days” by Bruce Springsteen. Recently the song came on the radio and instantly I was transported back in time to the summer before my senior year in high school. While reminiscing about all of my “glory days” in high school (oh such blissful ignorance about everything living in the “real” adult world entails) I realized the glory days don’t simply disappear post teenage years. In fact, despite all of the fun times and naiveté being young (and clueless) entails, my twenties were far better than my teenage years when compared collectively. My thirties (thus far) have proved to be even better. Although youthfulness fades, wisdom and knowledge are (in my opinion) a fantastic trade off. I have more confidence and self-assuredness now than I ever did in my younger years. Songs such as John Mellencamp’s “Jack and Diane” which talks about holding on to the age of sixteen as long as you can as “life goes on even after the thrill of living is gone” is in my opinion inaccurate. While I like John Mellencamp’s (80’s) music, I think there’s only a thread of truth in those lyrics. Yes, as a teenager you are carefree, innocent, fun loving, etc. yet teens have no idea who they are and rarely have been molded into what their values, beliefs, etc. will be as an adult. I believe that it is only through experience, trial and error, and growing pains that lead people to discover their true authentic selves. It is with great conviction that I feel this is simply not possible to do as a teenager or even in you early twenties. Personally, I would never voluntarily choose to return to those years if nothing else because they have created and shaped the person I am today (both good and bad). While many songs from my youth will continue to flood my mind with nostalgic memories, I am happy to have moved on to a different set of “glory days”.
Chantix Day 3
Dear Chantix-
I hate you. While I experienced no psycho dreams, headache, or even stabbing stomach pains this morning, I did become extremely nauseous and felt as though I were lit on fire from within. Luckily these symptoms passed after 45 (painstakingly long) minutes. With that said, I know you are working as I have already cut my habit in half and it’s only Day 3. If at all possible, please be kinder to my body during the next few days.
Your slave,
S
I hate you. While I experienced no psycho dreams, headache, or even stabbing stomach pains this morning, I did become extremely nauseous and felt as though I were lit on fire from within. Luckily these symptoms passed after 45 (painstakingly long) minutes. With that said, I know you are working as I have already cut my habit in half and it’s only Day 3. If at all possible, please be kinder to my body during the next few days.
Your slave,
S
Story of the Week
While waiting at the Louisville airport for my sister’s flight to arrive, Caleb, Erica and I browsed through the gift shops. One rack in particular had a series of funny cards with pictures of various animals on the covers. Caleb spotted a farewell card with a picture of a donkey on it and proceeded to make the following remark:
Caleb: “I should have bought this card for Bob Steven (their former farm donkey) before granddaddy sold him”. ^-^
Caleb: “I should have bought this card for Bob Steven (their former farm donkey) before granddaddy sold him”. ^-^
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Chantix Day 2
Dear Chantix-
I feel like sh*t… I swallowed you this morning only to find myself immediately sick for five minutes (the most accurate description would be to say it felt as if I were being stabbed repeatedly in the stomach-luckily past experience prepared me for this in advance). I now have a horrific headache (likely due to the beginning symptoms of nicotine withdrawal as you begin to block the nicotine receptors in my brain). I know from past experience I will feel 100% better by Day 7 and be completely smoke free, however; this knowledge offers little comfort at this time. Fret not, I will stick it out as I am determined to quit once and for all and be smoke free when I start my new job.
Your slave,
S
P.S. Thanks for the psycho dreams last night- dreaming I was swimming with two tarantulas are an experience I hope to never have in real life.
I feel like sh*t… I swallowed you this morning only to find myself immediately sick for five minutes (the most accurate description would be to say it felt as if I were being stabbed repeatedly in the stomach-luckily past experience prepared me for this in advance). I now have a horrific headache (likely due to the beginning symptoms of nicotine withdrawal as you begin to block the nicotine receptors in my brain). I know from past experience I will feel 100% better by Day 7 and be completely smoke free, however; this knowledge offers little comfort at this time. Fret not, I will stick it out as I am determined to quit once and for all and be smoke free when I start my new job.
Your slave,
S
P.S. Thanks for the psycho dreams last night- dreaming I was swimming with two tarantulas are an experience I hope to never have in real life.
Monday, February 14, 2011
Job Changes and Such....
I cannot believe I only have 4 working days left at my current job. I am excited and nervous....it's come so fast.
Stolen Part V
This weekend my sisters and I traveled to Owensboro to see our paternal grandmother (who was recently diagnosed with Alzheimer's-please see previous "Stolen" blogs). While our grandmother seemed to be in good spirits (and for the most part of sound mind) it was emotional sorting through her things at her house. My sisters and I discovered old photos, mementos, toys, etc. that brought back a flood of memories. This entire process is difficult-much more heart wrenching than I imagined it would be. While my sisters and I sorted through her things (and divided up what we each wanted), it still cannot replace our grandmother as we have always known her. The objects are merely sources of comfort yet sadly it cannot replace what has always been.
Quote of the week
Preface: I recently ordered the book entitled "What's Happening to my Body" book for boys (Caleb is curious and I wanted him to at least have a reference guide as I received the same version "for girls" whenever I was ten-years-old). Once the book arrived (via mail) Caleb briefly flipped through the book and made the following statement:
Caleb: "This book is shameful to me!"
Caleb: "This book is shameful to me!"
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Parenting
This morning I discovered Caleb made numerous purchases on his facebook account using my credit card. Initially, Caleb was given permission to purchase one $5“credit” on facebook, however; I failed to realize that upon entering my credit card information, it remained on his account (in the event future purchases might need to be made). As I checked my credit card statement this morning I discovered Caleb made four additional (and unauthorized $5 purchases) using my credit card without my permission while at his Nana’s house this past weekend. As a result, Caleb is now “grounded” from using facebook for one week and I deleted my credit card information from his account. In addition, I changed his password to ensure he cannot secretly gain access to his account during his time of punishment. In this instance I feel the consequences fit the crime and I do not feel guilty. What I do in fact feel guilty about is canceling his “Poptropica” membership (which cost $3.95 per month and he was paying for out of his allowance). My guilt stems from the fact I know he has worked very hard (via winning games, completing tasks, etc.) in order to “build up” his virtual world which he is very proud of. Deleting his account (as well as changing his password to ensure he cannot gain access while on punishment) has caused me guilt as his facebook crime had nothing to do with his “Poprtropica” membership/account. Still, when I look at the situation objectively (which is hard to do when you’re the parent and it’s your child), I think the punishments are justified and an important lesson for Caleb to learn. Consequently, Matt reported Caleb acknowledged that what he did was wrong but nevertheless pouted prior going to school (first by shutting himself in his bedroom and hiding under the covers then again by refusing to ride with Matt in the front seat on the way to school). Parenting is hard…it hurts my heart that I have taken away something he’s worked hard on but know it’s a lesson he must learn. With that said, I finally understand the parental meaning of the phrase, “this hurts me far more than it hurts you”.
Monday, February 7, 2011
Excerpts from Lola
Dear Mommy-
How can I even begin to explain the terrible incident that occurred at 5 AM this morning? I knew I was in trouble because not only did I wake you up with the loud thumps but also because of what you discovered once you came downstairs. In my defense I think I made bad choices this morning due to the over excitement of the Super Bowl last night (that half time show really revved me up). Mommy I am really, really sorry I discovered the cats litter box "waste container" (and the bad choices I proceeded to make after finding it). I don't know what possessed me to pull it across the kitchen floor, pry the lid off, then proceed to eat then scatter the cat litter/poop everywhere. I am sorry you spent twenty minutes on your hands and knees scrubbing the floor and cleaning everything up. If it's any consolation my belly really hurts now.
Always,
Lola^-^
P.S- I saw Izzie laughing at me whenever I got into trouble so I told her she can't come to my birthday party (because I turn 1 years old next month).
P.S.S.- Tell Matt I am sorry too...I ran away from him (down the cul-de-sac) last night despite the fact he had pepperoni treats...I just cannot resist running through the dark. Please also tell him I am sorry I made such a mess as I know he spent a lot of time mopping the kitchen floor yesterday afternoon.
How can I even begin to explain the terrible incident that occurred at 5 AM this morning? I knew I was in trouble because not only did I wake you up with the loud thumps but also because of what you discovered once you came downstairs. In my defense I think I made bad choices this morning due to the over excitement of the Super Bowl last night (that half time show really revved me up). Mommy I am really, really sorry I discovered the cats litter box "waste container" (and the bad choices I proceeded to make after finding it). I don't know what possessed me to pull it across the kitchen floor, pry the lid off, then proceed to eat then scatter the cat litter/poop everywhere. I am sorry you spent twenty minutes on your hands and knees scrubbing the floor and cleaning everything up. If it's any consolation my belly really hurts now.
Always,
Lola^-^
P.S- I saw Izzie laughing at me whenever I got into trouble so I told her she can't come to my birthday party (because I turn 1 years old next month).
P.S.S.- Tell Matt I am sorry too...I ran away from him (down the cul-de-sac) last night despite the fact he had pepperoni treats...I just cannot resist running through the dark. Please also tell him I am sorry I made such a mess as I know he spent a lot of time mopping the kitchen floor yesterday afternoon.
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Friday, February 4, 2011
Rants and Raves
I am by no means perfect and like any human being have horrid habits, etc. With that said, I am simply venting (AKA ranting and raving) about some of the things that personally send me over the edge at times:
Ink pens that don't work yet no one ever throws them away (as if they'll "magically" begin working again)
Poor grammar
When Lola "escapes" (always at a mad dash) towards the end of our cul-de-sac (please see previous posts)
Whenever Izzie "escapes" period
People who inhale their food (with their mouths wide open all the while trying to carry on a conversation)
Plucking my eyebrows (no further explanation needed)
Insomnia (yet I am drinking a diet Dr. Pepper as I write this at 3 AM-correlation perhaps?)
Bad manners
Rude people
Bullies
Racism
Narrow minded people
Religious extremist
High gas prices and even higher electric bills
Stubborn nicotine habits
People who drive slow in the express lane (seriously pull the f* over to the right side of the road so others can at the very least drive the speed limit)
My white-out obsession (if you work with me then no further explanation is required)
Animal cruelty
Abuse and neglect of any kind but especially towards children
Lola automatically assuming I should feed her each and every time I walk downstairs (even if it's only been five minutes since her last meal or just sixty seconds since I walked up then back down)
Having to write things out on paper-I type a million times faster (sadly my once beautiful penmanship has gone to hell)
Having to wait (for anything)...terrible habit I struggle with
People who type in all CAPS (it's as if they're screaming at you)
Habitually late people
When people urinate on the seats in public restrooms (and leave it for others to deal with)
My iPhone coverage at my house (I mean seriously, WTF AT&T?)
The stubborn five pounds I can't seem to permanently shed
Going to the dentist (AKA extreme anxiety regardless of the reason for my visit-no offense Dr. Major's-it isn't your fault)
Grocery shopping and the inevitable stares I receive from strangers who don't understand the reason my cart is filled with so much produce is because I have an apparently starving "micro pig" at home (because even a vegetarian couldn't consume that much produce in a months time yet Lola devours it in less than a week)
Not having a fan available whenever I go to sleep
Having my family live so far away (or is it perhaps the fact I live so far away from them?)
Expensive vet bills (let's be honest-vet bills in general)
Habitual/pathological liars
Commercials (thank you DVR)
Having to wait a million months for Season Four of "True Blood" to begin v v
Habitually selfish and irresponsible people
People who brag incessantly
Ink pens that don't work yet no one ever throws them away (as if they'll "magically" begin working again)
Poor grammar
When Lola "escapes" (always at a mad dash) towards the end of our cul-de-sac (please see previous posts)
Whenever Izzie "escapes" period
People who inhale their food (with their mouths wide open all the while trying to carry on a conversation)
Plucking my eyebrows (no further explanation needed)
Insomnia (yet I am drinking a diet Dr. Pepper as I write this at 3 AM-correlation perhaps?)
Bad manners
Rude people
Bullies
Racism
Narrow minded people
Religious extremist
High gas prices and even higher electric bills
Stubborn nicotine habits
People who drive slow in the express lane (seriously pull the f* over to the right side of the road so others can at the very least drive the speed limit)
My white-out obsession (if you work with me then no further explanation is required)
Animal cruelty
Abuse and neglect of any kind but especially towards children
Lola automatically assuming I should feed her each and every time I walk downstairs (even if it's only been five minutes since her last meal or just sixty seconds since I walked up then back down)
Having to write things out on paper-I type a million times faster (sadly my once beautiful penmanship has gone to hell)
Having to wait (for anything)...terrible habit I struggle with
People who type in all CAPS (it's as if they're screaming at you)
Habitually late people
When people urinate on the seats in public restrooms (and leave it for others to deal with)
My iPhone coverage at my house (I mean seriously, WTF AT&T?)
The stubborn five pounds I can't seem to permanently shed
Going to the dentist (AKA extreme anxiety regardless of the reason for my visit-no offense Dr. Major's-it isn't your fault)
Grocery shopping and the inevitable stares I receive from strangers who don't understand the reason my cart is filled with so much produce is because I have an apparently starving "micro pig" at home (because even a vegetarian couldn't consume that much produce in a months time yet Lola devours it in less than a week)
Not having a fan available whenever I go to sleep
Having my family live so far away (or is it perhaps the fact I live so far away from them?)
Expensive vet bills (let's be honest-vet bills in general)
Habitual/pathological liars
Commercials (thank you DVR)
Having to wait a million months for Season Four of "True Blood" to begin v v
Habitually selfish and irresponsible people
People who brag incessantly
Thursday, February 3, 2011
To this day, I still adore M.C. Hammer (and I don't care if it's "cool" or not)
Lola is truly my second child.
I am looking forward to reuniting with Erica and Amanda next weekend more than you could possibly know.
I do not wish to have any additional children at this time- my animals are my second, third, etc. children. Not to mention the fact Caleb is nothing short of fabulous.
This season of American Idol has made me fall in love with Steven Tyler all over again (as if I needed further reasoning).
Lola is well overweight...I consider this as only more to love-after all, she isn't overfed, she is simply "well loved" :)
I am blessed beyond belief to have such a naturally brilliant child (thanks Brad- he had to get it from you as I always had to work for it and had to climb mountains to get there).
I am addicted to both facebook and to blogging...without which I would likely fall into deep depression for nothing more than lack of expressive creativity.
My iphone appears to be "jacked"....I think it may be time to upgrade.
Oprah and my mother are the number one women in my life....no question.
I am looking forward to bowling night/karaoke night with my coworkers Feb. 18th- oh yes, due to the simple fact it's my last day, I will sing Karaoke.
I think it's nothing short of fabulous Elton John and his partner of 19 years not only made their civil relationship legal, but also had twins via surrogate. Come on America, get with the program already.
Lola is truly my second child.
I am looking forward to reuniting with Erica and Amanda next weekend more than you could possibly know.
I do not wish to have any additional children at this time- my animals are my second, third, etc. children. Not to mention the fact Caleb is nothing short of fabulous.
This season of American Idol has made me fall in love with Steven Tyler all over again (as if I needed further reasoning).
Lola is well overweight...I consider this as only more to love-after all, she isn't overfed, she is simply "well loved" :)
I am blessed beyond belief to have such a naturally brilliant child (thanks Brad- he had to get it from you as I always had to work for it and had to climb mountains to get there).
I am addicted to both facebook and to blogging...without which I would likely fall into deep depression for nothing more than lack of expressive creativity.
My iphone appears to be "jacked"....I think it may be time to upgrade.
Oprah and my mother are the number one women in my life....no question.
I am looking forward to bowling night/karaoke night with my coworkers Feb. 18th- oh yes, due to the simple fact it's my last day, I will sing Karaoke.
I think it's nothing short of fabulous Elton John and his partner of 19 years not only made their civil relationship legal, but also had twins via surrogate. Come on America, get with the program already.
Random
1.The toilet paper at my job is terrible. I have had a stomach virus for three days. Enough said.
2.I loathe raw vegetables. On the other hand, I will eat most veggies if they are cooked well and especially if they are seasoned in some way. Naturally, veggies are less nutritious whenever cooked but I simply cannot choke down raw carrots and celery no matter what type of spread/dip is provided/offered.
3.If you have not seen the movie trilogy “The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo” I highly recommend it. Although English versions are currently being produced, the Dubbed English versions (made in Switzerland) are excellent. Lizbeth Salander rocks it.
4.I had to drop off my eyeglasses for repair on Tuesday (luckily I had the foresight to purchase the insurance offered). Apparently, the” Deck” really did win (see previous post “Me Versus the Deck…P.S. the Deck Wins”) as I still have a small knot on my head and the right lens of my eyeglasses are scratched. It should be noted this incident occurred more than 12 days ago and bruises are still visible on my left shin.
5.I have only 9 more physical working days at my current job before it’s my last day. This both terrifies and excites me.
6.I’m still uncertain exactly what is going on in Egypt but do realize its paramount the world take note.
7.I generally only wash my hair every other day (unless it’s a gym day); however, rest assured I do bathe daily. It is only because I have thick (finally grown out) hair that allows me to get away with this.
8.Is extremely grateful for the much larger tax returns we are receiving than initially anticipated. Praise be I will be able to pay off all of my credit cards next month (promptly followed by me cutting said credit cards up).
2.I loathe raw vegetables. On the other hand, I will eat most veggies if they are cooked well and especially if they are seasoned in some way. Naturally, veggies are less nutritious whenever cooked but I simply cannot choke down raw carrots and celery no matter what type of spread/dip is provided/offered.
3.If you have not seen the movie trilogy “The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo” I highly recommend it. Although English versions are currently being produced, the Dubbed English versions (made in Switzerland) are excellent. Lizbeth Salander rocks it.
4.I had to drop off my eyeglasses for repair on Tuesday (luckily I had the foresight to purchase the insurance offered). Apparently, the” Deck” really did win (see previous post “Me Versus the Deck…P.S. the Deck Wins”) as I still have a small knot on my head and the right lens of my eyeglasses are scratched. It should be noted this incident occurred more than 12 days ago and bruises are still visible on my left shin.
5.I have only 9 more physical working days at my current job before it’s my last day. This both terrifies and excites me.
6.I’m still uncertain exactly what is going on in Egypt but do realize its paramount the world take note.
7.I generally only wash my hair every other day (unless it’s a gym day); however, rest assured I do bathe daily. It is only because I have thick (finally grown out) hair that allows me to get away with this.
8.Is extremely grateful for the much larger tax returns we are receiving than initially anticipated. Praise be I will be able to pay off all of my credit cards next month (promptly followed by me cutting said credit cards up).
Excerpts from Lola
Dear Mommy-
Please tell Matt how grateful I am he bought me new bags of pig pellets (after being out of said pellets for two days). Although I enjoy fruit and veggies, I really love my pellets (though I do think my breeder underestimated how long a bag should last versus how long it actually last at our house). I am currently out of fruit and veggies so please do not forget to pick them up for me when you grocery shop this weekend. I hope you have taken note of my improved manners as of late…I am using my litter boxes regularly and have learned to accept the weather this winter will pass and soon I will be able to play in the backyard again. Please also note how bad Izzie has been lately-she barks too much at the neighborhood cats and has escaped the backyard twice this week. I’m just saying.
Yours,
Lola ^_^
Please tell Matt how grateful I am he bought me new bags of pig pellets (after being out of said pellets for two days). Although I enjoy fruit and veggies, I really love my pellets (though I do think my breeder underestimated how long a bag should last versus how long it actually last at our house). I am currently out of fruit and veggies so please do not forget to pick them up for me when you grocery shop this weekend. I hope you have taken note of my improved manners as of late…I am using my litter boxes regularly and have learned to accept the weather this winter will pass and soon I will be able to play in the backyard again. Please also note how bad Izzie has been lately-she barks too much at the neighborhood cats and has escaped the backyard twice this week. I’m just saying.
Yours,
Lola ^_^
Story of the Week
Preface: Last weekend, Caleb attended his cousin’s winter festival (AKA school fundraiser). The festival consisted of games, a cake walk, and a silent auction.
Caleb: “Nana can I bid on the big basket of candy?”
Nana: “How much is the bid at now?”
Caleb: “$10.00”. (At this point Nana gave Caleb permission to place a bid on the candy).
Nana: “How much did you write down?”
Caleb: “$23.00.”
Needless to say, Nana quickly rushed over and changed the bid to a much lower amount.
Four days later, Nana received a phone call from the school informing her they won three items for a total cost of $45.00. Surprised, Nana is sending Granddaddy down to the school today to pick up the unknown items Caleb “won”.
Caleb: “Nana can I bid on the big basket of candy?”
Nana: “How much is the bid at now?”
Caleb: “$10.00”. (At this point Nana gave Caleb permission to place a bid on the candy).
Nana: “How much did you write down?”
Caleb: “$23.00.”
Needless to say, Nana quickly rushed over and changed the bid to a much lower amount.
Four days later, Nana received a phone call from the school informing her they won three items for a total cost of $45.00. Surprised, Nana is sending Granddaddy down to the school today to pick up the unknown items Caleb “won”.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Quote of the Week
Preface: Caleb and I enjoy watching the television series “I Survived” on the Biography channel. Although at times it can be graphic, each person manages to overcome tremendous odds and survive their terrifying predicament (thus the survivor recounts their true story of survival on the show). A couple of nights ago Caleb made the following comment prior to the season finale:
Caleb: “You know, almost everyone ends up living on the show”.
After a few seconds, Caleb pauses, laughs, then states, “Oh yeah, of course they all live-that’s why it’s called “I Survived!”
Caleb: “You know, almost everyone ends up living on the show”.
After a few seconds, Caleb pauses, laughs, then states, “Oh yeah, of course they all live-that’s why it’s called “I Survived!”
Story of the Week
Preface: One of my coworkers was getting her seven-year-old son ready for school this morning when he made the following remark:
Child: “Mom-you’re foxy!”
Coworker: (Confused) “What did you say?”
Child: “I said you’re foxy!”
Coworker: “How do you even know what foxy means?”
Child: “On the movie “Ice Age” the character Manny (a male wooly mammoth) says Ellie (a female wooly mammoth) is foxy.”
Coworker: “Do you know what foxy means?”
Child: “It means “round” mom, you know, like big and round”.
Child: “Mom-you’re foxy!”
Coworker: (Confused) “What did you say?”
Child: “I said you’re foxy!”
Coworker: “How do you even know what foxy means?”
Child: “On the movie “Ice Age” the character Manny (a male wooly mammoth) says Ellie (a female wooly mammoth) is foxy.”
Coworker: “Do you know what foxy means?”
Child: “It means “round” mom, you know, like big and round”.
Monday, January 31, 2011
True Blood
Dear HBO-
I had a dream last night I was watching the new Season 4 "True Blood" series. Upon awakening, reality cruelly set in. Kindly wrap up your directing, shooting, etc. and allow Season 4 to finally make its much anticipated debut (at the very least, please release Season 3 on DVD). Seriously, we are all beginning to suffer from a case of "the bleeds".
Sincerely,
S
V V
I had a dream last night I was watching the new Season 4 "True Blood" series. Upon awakening, reality cruelly set in. Kindly wrap up your directing, shooting, etc. and allow Season 4 to finally make its much anticipated debut (at the very least, please release Season 3 on DVD). Seriously, we are all beginning to suffer from a case of "the bleeds".
Sincerely,
S
V V
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Excerpts from Lola
Dear mommy-
I am really sorry I chewed your favorite gold earrings beyond recognition...in my defense, Max knocked them down from
the counter (on purpose I think).
Yours,
Lola ^-^
I am really sorry I chewed your favorite gold earrings beyond recognition...in my defense, Max knocked them down from
the counter (on purpose I think).
Yours,
Lola ^-^
Excerpts from Lola
Dear mommy-
I am really sorry I chewed your favorite gold earrings beyond recognitio
I am really sorry I chewed your favorite gold earrings beyond recognitio
Friday, January 28, 2011
Pivotal Moments
Ask any person (regardless of age) and they can give specific examples of where they were, what they were doing, etc. whenever a tragic event occurred. For example, the older generation can recall the bombing of Pearl Harbor while "baby boomers" can easily recall the day President John F. Kennedy was assassinated and the day John Lennon died. Others can recall the time period in which The Beatles "broke up" or when Nelson Mandela was released from years of prison. Belonging to a younger generation, I can recall the following moments in my own life at which time appeared to temporarily stand still:
1. January 28, 1986- the explosion of the Challenger Shuttle on television. I was only seven-years-old but I clearly remember watching the shocking events take place on television.
2. October 14, 1987-the rescue of "baby" Jessica McClure. At 18 months old, baby Jessica fell into a small uncovered well in her parents backyard. After much media publicity and many attempts to rescue her, she was finally rescued after 58 hours on October 16, 1987.
3. July 16, 1999-the plane crash and subsequent deaths of John F. Kennedy Jr., his wife, and her sister.
4. September 11, 2001-the hijacking of four airplanes, the subsequent destruction of the Twin Towers, and the loss of thousands of lives on American soil. I was nine months pregnant with Caleb and in absolute shock and utter disbelief.
5. November 2008-the day America voted President Obama into office. It was nothing short of astonishing both to Americans and to the world.
6. June 25, 2009-the day the world learned Michael Jackson died. The news riveted the world and his talents were immortalized forever.
7. October 11, 2010-the day the last of the 33 trapped miners in Chile were rescued-it was nothing short of miraculous.
1. January 28, 1986- the explosion of the Challenger Shuttle on television. I was only seven-years-old but I clearly remember watching the shocking events take place on television.
2. October 14, 1987-the rescue of "baby" Jessica McClure. At 18 months old, baby Jessica fell into a small uncovered well in her parents backyard. After much media publicity and many attempts to rescue her, she was finally rescued after 58 hours on October 16, 1987.
3. July 16, 1999-the plane crash and subsequent deaths of John F. Kennedy Jr., his wife, and her sister.
4. September 11, 2001-the hijacking of four airplanes, the subsequent destruction of the Twin Towers, and the loss of thousands of lives on American soil. I was nine months pregnant with Caleb and in absolute shock and utter disbelief.
5. November 2008-the day America voted President Obama into office. It was nothing short of astonishing both to Americans and to the world.
6. June 25, 2009-the day the world learned Michael Jackson died. The news riveted the world and his talents were immortalized forever.
7. October 11, 2010-the day the last of the 33 trapped miners in Chile were rescued-it was nothing short of miraculous.
The Weird Sisters
I know I’ve blogged about my (maternal) sisters in the past, however; this is simply a continuation of that blog and our ever changing lifestyles, personalities, and futures. In order from youngest to oldest, I will begin with my sister Hannah (whom we all adore):
Hannah (is):
Ten-years-old and conquering the world
A voracious reader (which I must admit I take much pride in as an avid reader myself)
Extremely insightful, intuitive, and intelligent
Has a best friend (who in my opinion she seems more on the “outs” with than friends with most of the time, but I guess that's pretty typical of most ten-year-old best friends)
A budding, talented writer (again, so proud…well because…ahem, so am I)
Has a great singing voice (lucky….because the rest of us absolutely, unequivocally do not)
Loves and has a special bond with animals
Constantly in some sort of collecting competition with Caleb-first with “Webkinz”, followed by “Silly Bandz”, and currently “Japanese puzzle erasers”
Kind, gentle, friendly, very funny, loves to laugh, and has a great sense of humor
Has eyes and lashes any girl would die for
Looks more and more like me every day (lucky her ;)
Erica (is):
Twenty-six years old and taking the world by storm
Moving to Louisville due to a great job opportunity and will be missed dearly by me (but hey, at least it’s still KY and not NY)
Has proved beyond a shadow of a doubt that blonds do not have more fun and is even more gorgeous with dark hair than blond
Fiercely loyal-mess with her family and you may die
Sensitive (though I bet many would never guess it)
Intuitive, intelligent, creative, and practical
A procrastinator!!!! Guarantee she will not be packed to move until the day of
One of the most hard working people I know- trust me, she will be a very successful and wealthy person some day
A natural leader
Stubborn as the day is long
Often takes on the role of “do the right thing” ESPECIALLY whenever she, Amanda and I get together as Amanda and I have a tendency to be selfish and do what we want and say f*ck doing the right thing- in other words, Erica makes us do the right thing even when we don't want too
Amanda (is):
Fiercely private (which has taken me a long time to truly “get” simply because I am not)
Eccentric, fun loving, and has an infectious laugh
Has a great sense of personal style
Has, despite the odds many newcomers face when moving to the city (AKA not a born New Yorker), officially made it
Makes friends easily and has a magnetic energy about her that’s difficult to explain unless you’re in her presence
Has gorgeous, long black hair (again, she also shattered the illusion blonds have more fun whenever she ventured to the dark side years ago)
Can be very direct to the point it can be offensive (case in point, “what are you staring at?” to a weirdo on the subway)-upside-she tells it how it really is which we all need a little of at times
Introduced me to the world of the necessity of demanding nothing less than luxury linens, bedding, etc. to sleep on-in all sincerity we all deserve this
Has bottomless energy I wish I could bottle and save for myself
FINALLY convinced me that utilizing “matchy-matchy” accessories is out- mix it up-you can wear brown and black together (and actually probably always should)
Extremely creative-case in point, the videos she's made of friends and family
Probably shares the most similar spiritual and political beliefs with me out of any of my sisters and I
Shanna (is):
Very opinionated (be it politics, spirituality, etc.) but still tries to respect the opinions/views of others
Loves to write (kind of obvious)
An avid reader
Loves to laugh (sometimes in inappropriate situations-ummm...especially in inappropriate situations)
Has a zoo in her house- I mean seriously, a pig??
Will be changing jobs in February and is both nervous and super excited
Sensitive (more than people realize)
Turning 33 this year...wow
A perfectionist and at times a control freak (it's a work in progress to change)
A Decorator and loves to organize and rearrange
Loves costume and unique jewelry-flea markets hold a very strong pull for me
Working on her LCSW (hopefully beginning in Feb.- come on Frankfort-send the final approval already!)
Liberal Democrat
Only wears dark nail polish (generally black)
Has a penchant for all things vintage-furniture, jackets, jewelry, purses, etc.
Loves wearing hats (floppy, page boy knit, fedora's, etc.)
Selfish and also self-motivated-basically a walking case of contradictions
With all of the above mentioned:
All of us love to dance (especially to "Come on Eileen")
All of us think Oprah rocks it out (as does Bill Maher)
All of us are very family oriented despite being spread out geographically
Hannah (is):
Ten-years-old and conquering the world
A voracious reader (which I must admit I take much pride in as an avid reader myself)
Extremely insightful, intuitive, and intelligent
Has a best friend (who in my opinion she seems more on the “outs” with than friends with most of the time, but I guess that's pretty typical of most ten-year-old best friends)
A budding, talented writer (again, so proud…well because…ahem, so am I)
Has a great singing voice (lucky….because the rest of us absolutely, unequivocally do not)
Loves and has a special bond with animals
Constantly in some sort of collecting competition with Caleb-first with “Webkinz”, followed by “Silly Bandz”, and currently “Japanese puzzle erasers”
Kind, gentle, friendly, very funny, loves to laugh, and has a great sense of humor
Has eyes and lashes any girl would die for
Looks more and more like me every day (lucky her ;)
Erica (is):
Twenty-six years old and taking the world by storm
Moving to Louisville due to a great job opportunity and will be missed dearly by me (but hey, at least it’s still KY and not NY)
Has proved beyond a shadow of a doubt that blonds do not have more fun and is even more gorgeous with dark hair than blond
Fiercely loyal-mess with her family and you may die
Sensitive (though I bet many would never guess it)
Intuitive, intelligent, creative, and practical
A procrastinator!!!! Guarantee she will not be packed to move until the day of
One of the most hard working people I know- trust me, she will be a very successful and wealthy person some day
A natural leader
Stubborn as the day is long
Often takes on the role of “do the right thing” ESPECIALLY whenever she, Amanda and I get together as Amanda and I have a tendency to be selfish and do what we want and say f*ck doing the right thing- in other words, Erica makes us do the right thing even when we don't want too
Amanda (is):
Fiercely private (which has taken me a long time to truly “get” simply because I am not)
Eccentric, fun loving, and has an infectious laugh
Has a great sense of personal style
Has, despite the odds many newcomers face when moving to the city (AKA not a born New Yorker), officially made it
Makes friends easily and has a magnetic energy about her that’s difficult to explain unless you’re in her presence
Has gorgeous, long black hair (again, she also shattered the illusion blonds have more fun whenever she ventured to the dark side years ago)
Can be very direct to the point it can be offensive (case in point, “what are you staring at?” to a weirdo on the subway)-upside-she tells it how it really is which we all need a little of at times
Introduced me to the world of the necessity of demanding nothing less than luxury linens, bedding, etc. to sleep on-in all sincerity we all deserve this
Has bottomless energy I wish I could bottle and save for myself
FINALLY convinced me that utilizing “matchy-matchy” accessories is out- mix it up-you can wear brown and black together (and actually probably always should)
Extremely creative-case in point, the videos she's made of friends and family
Probably shares the most similar spiritual and political beliefs with me out of any of my sisters and I
Shanna (is):
Very opinionated (be it politics, spirituality, etc.) but still tries to respect the opinions/views of others
Loves to write (kind of obvious)
An avid reader
Loves to laugh (sometimes in inappropriate situations-ummm...especially in inappropriate situations)
Has a zoo in her house- I mean seriously, a pig??
Will be changing jobs in February and is both nervous and super excited
Sensitive (more than people realize)
Turning 33 this year...wow
A perfectionist and at times a control freak (it's a work in progress to change)
A Decorator and loves to organize and rearrange
Loves costume and unique jewelry-flea markets hold a very strong pull for me
Working on her LCSW (hopefully beginning in Feb.- come on Frankfort-send the final approval already!)
Liberal Democrat
Only wears dark nail polish (generally black)
Has a penchant for all things vintage-furniture, jackets, jewelry, purses, etc.
Loves wearing hats (floppy, page boy knit, fedora's, etc.)
Selfish and also self-motivated-basically a walking case of contradictions
With all of the above mentioned:
All of us love to dance (especially to "Come on Eileen")
All of us think Oprah rocks it out (as does Bill Maher)
All of us are very family oriented despite being spread out geographically
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