Trust me...I am well aware...

It's been a while since I've blogged and in an effort to catch everyone up (and not have to recap recent events repeatedly) I am simply going to give a brief rundown on the latest:

1. I am getting divorced. Yep, it's official- I get an "F" in marriage 101.

2. I love Caleb more than anything in this world and regardless of our recent (and major) life changes, will do everything I can to protect and love him.

3. Inevitably I will be asked a million times as to why I am getting a divorce so here it is in a simplified version: fundamentally Matt and I want different things, we are different people, we cannot meet each other's (very different) needs, we've tried really hard for the last year and a half to make it work but it simply didn't. There is not any major event and/or thing that led to this, rather, it's a cumulative combination of many, many things.

4. Yes, I will be remaining in Nicholasville.

5. I still love my job at Cardinal Hill but admit I am getting desperate for a second social worker to come on board. And I really, really miss working with Meredith. REALLY.

6. I have the greatest most supportive family in the world who love and support me even when they don't understand me or agree with the decisions I make.

7. I am blessed to have an extremely supportive ex husband and former in-laws- their support and love for Caleb is amazing.

8. I am very fortunate to be surrounded by wonderful people I love and are there for me each and every time I need them.

9. Divorce (or breaking up in any relationship for that matter) is never easy, but I sincerely believe each person(even if they cannot see it now) will be happier in the long run (with regards to my current situation).

10. Now (more than ever), I realize how important it is to live and be your true authentic self. You aren't doing yourself or anyone else any favors by living a lie or being too afraid to admit what your needs, beliefs, and values are even if it means something else has to end in order for you to be true to yourself. Life lessons are painful but inevitably necessary, healthy, and in the end make us better human beings.