Today at work (wearing a cute black dress and killer black high heels-hey, I’m just saying) I quickly discovered I have been bitten by a mosquito on my, ahem… derriere. Nice. Completing evaluations will be great fun as I try not to scratch and squirm. Thanks you little blood sucker. If I am going to be bitten, can’t a vampire from “True Blood” be the culprit? Now that’s something I would proudly display. V-V
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Monday, August 15, 2011
My Indian Guru
During the last few years there has been an older Indian man I have often seen walking throughout my local community. He is dressed in Indian attire and appears to walk everywhere-the library, grocery store, etc. – in other words, he literally walks miles everyday. I do not know his age- if pressed to guess I would venture to say he is in his seventies. Initially (upon moving to Nicholasville five years ago) I was frightened by this strange man who spoke in a thick Indian accent and blessed each person who crossed his path. In recent weeks I have seen this Indian man at least once a day at which each time he stops to speak with me. My Indian man always says the same things to me: “Bless you. You are a beautiful mother. You are a good person. God is great. Your inner beauty is visible through your eyes. You will be okay. I love you. Be blessed.” My Indian man has taught me many things- he appears to be one of the most happy, energetic, and peaceful person’s I have ever met (and I would like to learn his secret to his ability to radiate these qualities). My Indian man has a wife and family (whom I have never met) but his daily blessings are something I now look forward to. I think my Indian man has much to teach me…he has traveled the world and studied philosophy, religion, etc. extensively. Thank you universe for bringing this simple, humble, extraordinarily happy person into my life.
Paying it Forward...
“That’s just the way it is but I hope it doesn’t stay that way”…
As many of my readers are aware I do not in any way consider myself religious (please see previous posts), however, I do consider spirituality to be an important aspect in my life (and hopefully in others lives as well). With that said, I attended church yesterday… (readers I know you are momentarily stunned into silence)... but I found it to be incredibly inspiring. While I turned a silent ear to most of the religious jargon I was incredibly inspired by the compelling acts of selfless volunteerism this particular organization has been doing. I am a big believer in “paying it forward” and as a result feel compelled to give back to others (not monetarily speaking but instead through simple acts of volunteering and acts of kindness). I am especially interested in the programs in which 1-2 times a week, volunteers venture into some of the most poverty stricken areas in our community, knock on doors, and simply ask the residents if they need any help or assistance. These volunteers are not trying to “convert” or receive anything in return…they are simply helping those who are vulnerable and unable to help themselves. These volunteers have literally moved mountains…feeding starving children (both in our country and around the world), providing medical assistance, and providing other much needed resources. Instead of feeling sorry for myself, I have decided to focus on others who are far less fortunate than I. One person alone may not be able to change the world but perhaps by joining hands we really can change the world simply by “paying it forward”.
As many of my readers are aware I do not in any way consider myself religious (please see previous posts), however, I do consider spirituality to be an important aspect in my life (and hopefully in others lives as well). With that said, I attended church yesterday… (readers I know you are momentarily stunned into silence)... but I found it to be incredibly inspiring. While I turned a silent ear to most of the religious jargon I was incredibly inspired by the compelling acts of selfless volunteerism this particular organization has been doing. I am a big believer in “paying it forward” and as a result feel compelled to give back to others (not monetarily speaking but instead through simple acts of volunteering and acts of kindness). I am especially interested in the programs in which 1-2 times a week, volunteers venture into some of the most poverty stricken areas in our community, knock on doors, and simply ask the residents if they need any help or assistance. These volunteers are not trying to “convert” or receive anything in return…they are simply helping those who are vulnerable and unable to help themselves. These volunteers have literally moved mountains…feeding starving children (both in our country and around the world), providing medical assistance, and providing other much needed resources. Instead of feeling sorry for myself, I have decided to focus on others who are far less fortunate than I. One person alone may not be able to change the world but perhaps by joining hands we really can change the world simply by “paying it forward”.
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Dear Universe,
While you are no doubt extremely busy, I would be most appreciative if you could speed this whole process up. I am very ready to move on and move forward with my life. Although my mind fully understands this, can you kindly explain this to my heart? I am tired of being sad, not eating, nor sleeping well. Please help me to heal myself and as quickly as possible.
Gratefully Yours,
S
While you are no doubt extremely busy, I would be most appreciative if you could speed this whole process up. I am very ready to move on and move forward with my life. Although my mind fully understands this, can you kindly explain this to my heart? I am tired of being sad, not eating, nor sleeping well. Please help me to heal myself and as quickly as possible.
Gratefully Yours,
S
Friday, August 12, 2011
Me
Right Now
1. Shopping doesn’t heal a broken heart but it certainly helps to soothe it.
2. As does Botox and Juvaderm.
3. Looking great and living well are the best revenge.
4. Therapy certainly helps as well.
5. I have learned a very hard lesson- there are manipulative and lying people in the world (I’ve naively always believed the opposite).
6. I am a bit bitter but not broken. I am a survivor. Time really does heal all wounds.
7. From the outside you’d never guess what’s going on in my life right now (I am a pretty good actress/pretender).
8. Thus the need for therapy.
9. I miss Lola.
10.I miss my true self more.
11.Learning to type again with acrylic nails (after not wearing any for so long) really was easier than I thought it would be. Texting-not so much.
12.I am lost but will eventually find my way.
13.I have cried and grieved more in the last 6 months than I have in my entire life. It’s therapeutic (and I rarely cried before-AKA-there’s a lot to get out).
14.I do not consider myself a weak person…I’ve just had to be strong for too long.
15.I highly recommend spray tans….avoid the wrinkles and sun spots at all cost.
16.I am learning to take better care of myself (emotionally). I am not perfect but at least I am trying.
17.I feel sorry for people who lie to themselves….eventually it will catch up with you. Really.
18.I know this from experience.
19.Someday I will be whole again and then the possibilities will be endless.
20.There is a reason I am here today and experiencing this process. I don’t know the reasons yet but one day I will. Based upon previous experience, the worse it hurts the more you learn and grow.
1. Shopping doesn’t heal a broken heart but it certainly helps to soothe it.
2. As does Botox and Juvaderm.
3. Looking great and living well are the best revenge.
4. Therapy certainly helps as well.
5. I have learned a very hard lesson- there are manipulative and lying people in the world (I’ve naively always believed the opposite).
6. I am a bit bitter but not broken. I am a survivor. Time really does heal all wounds.
7. From the outside you’d never guess what’s going on in my life right now (I am a pretty good actress/pretender).
8. Thus the need for therapy.
9. I miss Lola.
10.I miss my true self more.
11.Learning to type again with acrylic nails (after not wearing any for so long) really was easier than I thought it would be. Texting-not so much.
12.I am lost but will eventually find my way.
13.I have cried and grieved more in the last 6 months than I have in my entire life. It’s therapeutic (and I rarely cried before-AKA-there’s a lot to get out).
14.I do not consider myself a weak person…I’ve just had to be strong for too long.
15.I highly recommend spray tans….avoid the wrinkles and sun spots at all cost.
16.I am learning to take better care of myself (emotionally). I am not perfect but at least I am trying.
17.I feel sorry for people who lie to themselves….eventually it will catch up with you. Really.
18.I know this from experience.
19.Someday I will be whole again and then the possibilities will be endless.
20.There is a reason I am here today and experiencing this process. I don’t know the reasons yet but one day I will. Based upon previous experience, the worse it hurts the more you learn and grow.
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