Changes

Dearest-

I realize it has been some time since I last blogged and rather than apologize for my absence, I will attempt to explain my reasons for temporarily vanishing. Approximately two months ago I (*finally*) realized I was in need of some professional guidance. As a result, I sought out an array of professionals who were able to help me address a variety of personal issues. Since that time, I have slowly been rebuilding a healthy and stable life for myself as well as for my family (alas a slow process but ultimately proving to be successful and life saving). At present I am at a healthy, positive, and optimistic point in my life. For the first time (in a very long time) I feel like myself again- a person I had lost during the last two years. With all of that said I am whole heartedly sorry to any person (especially my friends and family) I may have hurt or neglected during the last two (self-destructive) years. Though the self-imposed journey was painful, I am profoundly grateful for the experience and self-knowledge I attained as a result of working through the pain. I am truly humbled by those who never stopped believing in me even though I had longed stopped believing in myself.

My sincerest gratitude goes out to those who stood beside me (even when I did not deserve it)…I thank you from the depths of my heart.

S