Things that make me go hmm....

Since our relationship ended, Matt and I have been cautious and tentative within our newly defined "friends only" relationship.  Although the dissolution of any relationship is painful, letting go of what was clearly not working and instead focusing on the friendship aspects appears to be working for us.  Without question, Matt will always be one of my best friends and have a place within my life.  Despite momentary pangs of sadness, I intuitively know that hanging on to our friendship and letting go of all else is the right thing to do.  After all, I'd rather have him as my friend than not have him in my life at all (which I feared might happen if we'd continued to try and force something that clearly wasn't going to work).  While it appears I have chosen to take the higher, moral road, do not be completely fooled.  Thanks in part to my astrological Libra marking (or at least that's the one excuse I permit myself to have), I am easily provoked into becoming a vicious, jealous green-eyed monster.  Though I admit this monster has become more tame over the years, she is far from broken.  Case in point?  Matt and I were talking on the phone last night when he admitted someone asked him out the day before.  While I have no rightful claim to be even remotely jealous, my monster clearly did not care whether I was entitled or not.  Initially surprised by my (monster's) violent reaction, I later realized it had more to do with me wanting to protect Matt than anything else.  I don't like for people to hurt or mistreat those I love.  I am not a wicked witch nor would I act like one once Matt begins dating...unless of course she deserves it...then all bets are off....^-^