Gina Sometimes

I was given the nickname Gina when I was twenty-one. Gina was my alter ego at the time. She was fun and reckless. Gina was the life of the party.  She collected hearts on a key chain basking in the adoration of others. And while Gina was all things fun, she was deeply unhappy. She was lost with something deep inside broken. Through many painful experiences, growth, and grace Gina no longer exist today. What Gina had been searching for in others, I found within myself. Through God I found me. I learned to like, love, and accept myself. I no longer search for validation through others. I now know my self worth. Today I am so greatful for this life. It's breathtaking. It's filled with love and beauty. I am truly blessed to have the people I have in my life today. God took away Gina and gave me myself.