And so I sat quietly...

It was subtle at first...so I sat quietly.

The warning signs were present but I turned a blind eye...and I sat quietly.

The flirting which snowballed...the deception I accepted ...yet I sat quietly.

My intuition which screamed something was wrong...and I sat quietly.

The gradual disintegration of affection and intimacy...yet I sat quietly.

The slow division into leading separate lives...and I sat quietly.

The slow withdrawal into myself and self imposed isolation...and I sat quietly.

The acceptance of his will and his ways...and I sat quietly.

My soul quietly dying...and I sat quietly.

Today I am amazed at my past silence-my acceptance of that which was. I weep for the empty shell of a woman I became. I don't recognize that girl. My strong, independent, and outspoken self slowly shutting down. It's indescribable. It's unfathomable. I refuse to believe I was prepared to live out my life in that manner. Yet I was. Yet I did. Thank you God for the gift his betrayal became.  Thank you God for my beautiful life today. Thank you God for shaking me-for waking me up. Thank you God-for I will never sit quietly again.