Letting Go

Letting go is always hard. I have a tendency to hold onto people, places, and things with an iron grip. Although God has demonstrated time after time that my life is infinitely better when I step aside, it is still sometimes frightening to submit. By nature I am selfish and self centered. I easily fall under the illusion that I am not enough. This particularly holds true with regards to men. I repeat the pattern in seeking external factors to obtain the illusion of fulfillment. It is not realistic and it does not work. There has recently been men in my life who (for whatever reason) have been unable to be all in. That is okay. I do not see it as a personal shortcoming on my part. Today I know myself well enough to not settle for anything less than I deserve. Scraps of attention are no longer enough for this girl. I am not actively searching. I know that when the time is right the chance encounter will unfold itself. I need do nothing for God's timing is always perfect.