The Year of Loss

I strive to live in the present moment. To be fully present requires great effort and discipline. I often fall short. I am trying to avoid living in the future (which in my experience only results in anxiety). With that said, I am looking forward to closing the book on 2017. It has been one of the most difficult years of my life (2011 hands down wins the cake). It has been a year of loss-from a break up to my relapse. I have dealt with 4 pets being euthanized. Moving and changes in work duties only compounded the many challenges. I am not pitying myself. Rather, I am learning it is okay to suffer-it is part of the human condition. This year has been mentally and emotionally exhausting. And yet, I seek out the silver lining. Pain truly is the touch stone of spiritual growth. After all of the trials and tribulations, I have discovered a stronger connection to my authentic self. I am more independent, healthy, and spiritually fit than I have ever been. This is the true miracle. It took great pain to get there. I embrace this past year as without it my life would not be what it is today. Alas, I am no saint. I still eagerly welcome a new year with new beginnings.  2018 here I come.